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"Only go out with someone when you want to marry them."

I have lived by this quote ever since I've heard it. I think my friend said it once online, but I'm not entirely sure. But I have to say that this was the most life changing things that I've heard. I never heard of it, really, I never THOUGHT of it. It made sense. I felt like an idiot for not thinking of it, really.

Oh yep, I seriously wish I had heard of this earlier. My one true weakness is love. It always has been. I always say that I would never fall in love again, because its just.. a nuisance sometimes. It gets in the way. But I always, always get sucked up into it again, and I embrace it once more.

But the beauty about love is, is that you improve. You learn from countless heartbreaks and hardships. I know that love is a life lesson, and learning NOT to love is just an easy way out. I think you need to experience love when you're young, honestly. If you can prevent it, great. Please do. But if you can't help it, then you can't help it. Love is love, it seems to be an unstoppable force for me.

It's kind of disheartening though, to see people that are slightly younger than me in love. I mean..yeah, I guess I was like them, but sometimes I think they're going in the wrong path. Then again, I guess life is a total b***h and they'll end up learning that in the end, anyway. Love is just..a mystery to me, yet..I've experienced so much about it.

And as time goes on, you learn that love can change you, good or bad. For a short period of time however, after some heartbreak, you kind of get bitter and angry. I think we all know this feeling if we've had our first love already. And sometimes when you don't know what you're doing, you go..a bit insane, perhaps? I can't really find the word. But when I was with my first love, I was..god, it was through 6th-8th grade. And in 7th grade, I seriously ******** up. ALOT. Its amazing how he managed to stick with me (even though we were on the verge of splitting apart) for all those years.

BUT the great thing about my experiences, is that I was taught many things. What I should do, what I shouldn't do. What love feels like, what true love feels like, what fake love feels like. I learned what it feels like to be totally crushed, but to be brought up again by someone else. I learned what it's like to love someone despite everything, and to not give a ******** about the boundaries. I've learned to ignore what people say. I've just..I learned how to love, basically.

At this point in time, I don't know what will happen. But I know that I'll be even more emotionally stronger. I just know it.

~Vanessa heart