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I saw just a corpse in the reflection
Staring back at me with pleading eyes
Holding its hand out for affection
Before it breaks down and dies
I couldn't hold my own hand
And I couldn't lean against my own soul
I needed your help to stand
Because without you, I'm just not whole

I was begging you, reach out to me
Please don't let me keep falling away from you
I needed some sense of relief
I just couldn't believe any of it was true
And so I held the bottle to my lips
Drinking down a false peace
I forced the pain to become eclipsed
I need you, Please

I fell to the floor, begging on my knees
Knowing full well that I've done wrong
Beginning to doubt you'd ever, ever see
That with you is the only place I'd ever belong
I just needed to hear you
I just needed to know if you were alright
But it just wasn't good enough to
Comfort me in the middle of the night

The remedy I had drank down
Just wouldn't be good enough
Because nothing could ever, ever drown
The feeling of losing My Love
So I picked up my torture device
Not knowing what I should do
Whether I should end this life
Or keep trying to reach for you

I needed you to tell me it would all be alright
Because I didn't feel I could hold back much more
I didn't feel like I could continue this fight
When it felt like I'd lost the one I adore
Please tell me it's not happening now
And that I'd wake up from a dream soon
That everything would be ok somehow
That I never, ever lost you

But I knew I wouldn't wake from this nightmare
I knew nothing would be gone in the blink of an eye
Please just be there
Please, don't leave me here to die
Your silence was making me feel insane
Am I not worth it anymore?
Just call out my name
And stop me from lying dead on the floor

The only sound I could ever hear
Was the sound of my own heart breaking
I wanted it to just disappear
And stop all of this damned aching
I was begging of you, one last time
Let me know it's all going to be alright
Please just change my mind
And don't let me die tonight