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All the Vampires in the world Can't compare to the amount of tears i've made women shed and the tears they shed for one another and the tears i've shed.
i wish i could free fall into a pit of hell and never have to harm another again,
i wanna write my name in the sky and leave my final mark on the world.
and now i can truly free fall as my name vanishes. and as it does i can drop my last tear for the hearts and bodies and souls hurt. im a bad man im a bad lover.
im a pitiful and sorry excuse for a person

i am The one and only Allen Monroe ******** Dubois
and i hate myself and im sure you'll grow to hate me too
because no matter what i do no matter how hard i try. i hurt and crush everyone in my way so please don't ever come toward me and just run away please.
i make the best girl i've ever had cry. and all i could do was tell her im sorry.
am i not an amazing spectacle, and im free falling... into a pit of the boiling hot tears of the women i've crushed my mothers, Andrea's, Cassy's, Kim's, Haley's, Katie's,
Tori's, Miss Carnahan, Aileen, My Grandmother, My Brother
i wish you all the best in life

You know someone once told me that you aren't Born to do anything. you are meant to make your own choices in life and those choices well those choice shape the man woman or child you become and those choice will have consequences jealousy, anger,rage,happiness,sadness,fear. But of all the choices the biggest one is to hurt people and you do it on purpose and unintentionally and those you hurt will forgive you or not forgive you. but in the end you your self have your own path to carve into this earth and it seems mine is drenched in tears. I hope and believe that yours will be something special