I don't want to be here anymore, I want to be free from the endless tormenting and nightmares.
Midnight isn't leaving me alone and I keep screaming every day and night for him to leave which never works. I'm tired of being tormented by him and crying all the time. He left me alone for two weeks when I was put in the hospital and now that I'm out all he does is torment me for no bloody reason. I question him why he didn't bother me when I was in the hospital but now he is and doing it worse than before I went in. Got no answer from him of course.
I'm wishing to disappear so badly wanting to erase the pain and memories. Wanting to pick the knife or razor and tear apart this disgusting flesh of mine. Slice it open to numb the pain seeing the blood as it runs down my arms into the river of nothing. The urges will never go away of wanting to harm myself. I'm getting worse now than ever before when I was 14 which was when everything started for me. I can't take it anymore I need to hurt myself badly to release all this built up pain that is eating me away.
Sorry I think I'm going back to the darkness and the light will never reach me again.
~Kitten
I can't take any of this!!!!! No one is helping me out no one is caring about me. I AM NOTHING!!!!!!
Midnight now has Rayne helping him out inlcuding ******** Panda who keeps pointing his god damn pistol at my ******** face. I can't take this anymore why won't anyone help me, why am I so alone in the world.
I haven't harm myself but the urges are getting worse. I keep having nightmares and visions of me ripping my flesh open with a razors or stabbing myself. God! I want to cut so ******** badly that if I do it I know I'll be put back in the hospital. I want to resist and to never have an urge again. Which will never end.
I can't live like this anymore, I need to leave this world or at least isolate myself so no one knows me or even remember me. I want this to ******** end already!!!!
~Kitten
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