Moon is a girl that is 15 or 16, she reflects what has happen in high school for me. She's a total b***h and screams at me to do something horrible. She likes it when I harm myself but loves when people hurt me phsycially or mentally, loves it even more when people leave me cause of the way I act towards them plus loving it when she takes over to harm everyone even random people. Me and her go at it all the time, she usually wins most times but when I win she sulks about it for maybe 3 days maxed.
Panda is the little boy who is maybe 8 or 9, he reflects my childhood. Though I don't remember my childhood he seems to know what happen from the abuse given to me from other school mates and some teachers. He will talk in third person which reminds you that he's still a kid. He goes in my memories from my past to prove that people don't care or love me and he gets that proof once people leave me when they get fed with me. He also the one that says I'm worthless and I'm piece of s**t etc. He only leaves when Rayne or Chad comes since he's afarid of them. Him and Moon just hate each other so much that they only fight.
Rayne is 18, he reflects on what happen to me at that age. He mostly calm but mean towards me. He only just reminds me on what happen the years I was 18 and 17. On what almost happen to me towards the end of the year I was 18 and what I did to myself during those 2 years. If he feels that someone is trying to take me away he will come out to get that person far away from me. I've lost a lot of friends cause of Rayne.
Chad is 20 which is the age I am now. He's the leader out of the 4, what he does is makes sure everyone does what they need to do. If I go against Moon, Panda and Rayne (which I do) he will go after me and take over. He harms me as punishment so he can get his jollys basically speaking. I'm actually afarid of Chad since he does attack my body and mind when he feels that I've done something wrong or he just wants to do it.
These are 4 personalities/voices that are inside me and have become worse. I wanted to tell you all who they were and so you can know what I'm constantly dealing with. And I feel as one of them was going to take control before I could ge this out so I'm doing it now before they are awaken. You my think I'm crazy or whatever but to me these 4 are real to me as you touching another real person that's alive. If you don't already know what I have its: Mixed Bi-polar, Schizophrenia, Social Anxiety, Obsessive Complusive Disorder, Depression. Also I'm suicidal and a cutter so ya be careful around me. Though I have mental disorders and how I handle them is through cutting doesn't mean I'm any less different than you. I may be different but I'm still a person afterall, I warn you that when I'm not myself its cause of them or cause of my Bi-polar. I just wanted people to know what's wrong me and don't think or treat me any different just cause of what I wrote.
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