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the day was gloomy and i was contemptuous. there was indignation in the air, my mother Anna was yelling and screaming. Great like it hadn’t been enough. my head hurts. maybe its time to go. opening the window slowly. the cold air slaps me right on the face. Jumping out would be dangerous on a two story house, but hey it beats the yelling and screaming. the surface of the grass was covered with a blanket of snow. You can do this i kept telling my self.1,2,3!ouwch that hurts! even if i landed on my feet. Great my navy hair is covered with snow.. so typical. its cold but who really cares. That’s when I noticed there’s a blue full moon. Well this is no time for staring. I need peace and quiet. wow. I can even hear my mom screaming and yelling from outside the house. "go to the park" a little voice in my head said. I fallowed what it said and went to the park.
the play ground was covered in snow, the air cold. the woods look so lonely. Why is it i get the feeling I’m being watched? "Ignore it." i told my self, fallowing to snowy trail. After a few moments of walking alone, I just stopped. If I wasn’t born mom could have been happy. She wouldn’t notice i wasn’t their.
"don’t think that, little rose. “a male voice said behind me. who the hell is this person and how does he know my name? better not to see and find out. What a creep. just walk away i kept telling myself. Something kept me there.
BEEEP,BEP. the sound of the alarm went off. what the hell. was that just a dream? who was that guy? i know i should be in school but since i graduated and finished the university i have nothing to do but just go out side and walk. being fourteen sucks. Can’t get a job or a car. this place doesn’t seem real anymore. Chicago or the windy city. land of opportunity and stuff, but for that reason i call it land of the undead. even though the city is busy, the suburbs is all calm and quiet. the winters aren’t so bad as they seem on TV. i need to make some cash so if i get kicked out early i have some way to live on. sigh. stopping in the middle of the snowy road. its so weird how come I’m not like every one else starting to wonder. HONK, HONK. huh were is that coming from? turning to look at my left. oh my god I’m going to die. Isn’t it what i wanted though? no. move, move! i cant move my legs its like they are frozen. bracing my self for impacted. the car sketched to a halt. the car door opened as fast as it has stopped. "are u ok?" he started to ask.
"....."
i swear i heard his voice before. looking up at his face, his eyes blue like the ocean but not as dark as mine. his light brown hair that looked more like the color bronze. his body looked built but at the same time slim. he look about eighteen. "are you hurt anywhere miss?"
"no. I’m ok. "i started to say. staring into his eyes.
"good. hey aren’t you supposed to be in school?"
"no. i finished it, I’m just walking that’s all.. oh and my i ask what’s your name?"
"its zero, and yours"
"my name is....miki"
"well miki ill give you a lift if you want to."
"no, no thanks I’m ok just walking"
"ok. here take my card."
he took out a little business card, and handed it to me. taking it as if it held some thing in secret.
"ah. thank you zero, but why are you giving me one?"
"call me if you need a favor ok?” i couldn’t stop looking into his eyes. those blue eyes, they are so mesmerizing stopped my self and looked away. "ok thank you. well, um bye" walking away, augh why couldn’t i stop staring at him? I’m not like this at all. oh its getting dark better start getting home.
the snow sparkled as the sun was setting. i wish i was like the snow, pure and simple. the air was cool and stale. time passed and it was dark. the snow sparkled as the moon set in. huh? was i just staring at the snow too long? oh s**t! i need to get home or else she might throw a b***h fit. the porch light came on. the floors creaked as i stepped on it.
creek." sorry I’m late mother." saying after closing the door. "were the hell were you? i told you not to stay out long. He’s going to be here any minute. "I hate him. he is my mothers boyfriend. he is my enime. the way he looks, the way he smiles everything to me looks like he might be a player. his jet black hair, his eyes black a bit pale. to me he looks like a zombie. ding dong "oh! He’s early, and be nice to him. miki. remember the last time my ex came and he just went running out the door. "what can i say i was in a bad mood so i just pulled a mask and a huge fake knife out, and jumped out i didn’t know he would scream and run away like a chicken. the door closed,the feeling of loneliness lingered . why? why mom? why would you chose him over me? your daughter, your own flesh and blood. Don’t you love me anymore or am i just to much to bear to look at? i guess i look to much like my dad? dad. when was the last time i thought of dad? Its been years hasn’t it? why did you leave me, dad? a stray tear fell to the ground. the house dark, and silent. it was big enough to hold two families. the snow covering the yard in a thick blanket layer. slowly i started to drift away.
"uh..huh?" pushing my self to sit upward. what time is it? a yawn escaped from my mouth. what time was it? hmm she’s still not here? oh well she’s probably not going to come back for at least a month. grumble grumble hmmm when was the last time i eat something? the floors were cool and smooth. i wonder if she’s going to call? or maybe not. taking the peanut butter out and spreading it evenly on the bread. maybe she wont be coming back ever. nah!, that wont happen at least not often. feeling my rough hair, better go brush my hair or else it would get tangle. standing in front of the mirror wondering if i could remember what my dad looks like. his face softly blurred in my memories. hmm i cant even remember if i even had half the stuff they said i had even when i was a child
chirp chirp my eyes flitter open. huh? when did i fall asleep? the air was still and cold. the sun hidden behind the gray clouds. creak creak the stairs went under her feet. Need food. Empty wow......great i have no car what’s so ever. hmm i should change my cloths these are getting wrinkled. might as well reuse my jeans. when i sudenly remembered that i needed money. Reaching for my sweater something fell.huh? whats this?