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i couldnt stop loooking into his eyes.those blue eyes,they are so mesmorizing.i stoped my self and looked away."ok thank you.well,um bye"walking away,augh why coudnt i stop staring at him?im not like this at all.oh its getting dark better start getting home.
the snow sprakled as the sun was setting.i wish i was like the snow,pure and simple.the air was cool and stail.time passed and it was dark.the snow sparkled as the moon set in.huh?was i just staring at the snow too long?oh s**t!i need to get home or else she might throw a b***h fit.the porch light came on.the flors creeked as i steped on it.
creek."sorry im late mother."saying after closing the door."were the hell were you?i told you not to stay out long.hes going to be here any minute."i hate him.he is my mothers boyfriend.he is my enime.the way he looks,the way he smiles everything to me looks like he might be a player.his jet black hair,his eyes black a bit paile.to me he looks like a zombei.ding dong"oh!hes early,and be nice to him.miki.remember the last time my ex came and he just went running out the door."what can i say i was in a bad mood so i just pulled a mask and a huge fake knife out,and jumped out i didnt know he would scream and run away like a chicken.the door closed.why?why mom?why would you chose him over me?your daughter,your own flesh and blood.dont you love me anymore or am i just to much to baer to look at?i guesse i look to much like my dad?dad. when was the last time i thought of dad?its been years hasnt it?why did you leave me dad?a stray tear fell to the groung.the house dark, and silent.it was big enough to hold two familyes.the snow covering the yard in a thick blanket layer.slowly i started to drift away.
"uh..huh?"pushing my self to sit upword.what time is it?a yawn escaped from my mouth.what time was it?hmm shes still not here?oh well shes probobly not going to come back for at least a month.grumble grumblehmmm when was the last time i eat something?the floors were cool and smoth.desending from the back stair case, i wonder if shes going to call?or maybe not.taking the peanut butter out and spreding it evenly on the bread.maybe she wont be coming back ever.nah that wont happen at least not often.better go brush my hair or else it would tangle.standing in front of the mirror wondering if i could remember what my dad looks like.his face blured in my memories.hmm i cant even remember if i even had half the stuff they said i had even when i was a child