I've been put on a new medication about a week ago and its suppose to help my schizophrenia which has also been giving me bad side effects that are hard to deal with but will soon go away.
Well last night I started to take a double does of it cause my nightmares are getting out of control I'm having them during the day while I'm wide awake. I'm constantly in fear afarid that another nightmare might happen.
My mom is overly concern since she wishes that the nightmares will disappear and hates hearing me complain about them. A few times she has seen me cried or unable to stop shaking from the nightmares.
I doubt my younger siblings know whats going on with me but they at least know I hate the new medication but I mean who doesn't hate being medication.
I just wish there's was a way to have these nightmares be gone forever. I keep hearing about a little micro chip that goes in someone brain if they have a certain mental or physical disorder. I know its stupid to want that but if you were me and knew what I was dealing with including the constant voices. Its still in the developing stage on the mirco chip but I really wish I could have it or be a tester for it at least.
I'm tired of being afarid all the time, the constant shaking and crying from the nightmares that don't wish to leave me alone. I wish there was a way to end this or at least numb it.
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