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I typed up an autobiographical essay I was supposed to do last week in wordpad.
Unlike most people, I have no word processing program more advanced than what comes with the computer(which, by the way, MS word Does NOT come with Windows).

The .txt file's been sitting on my desktop for some time and yesterday I installed Open Office. Today I opened the program for a time for a nice five seconds to read something that happened to end in .doc that wasn't my essay, and then closed it and never look at it again.

Not that bad, since I only just opened one of my christmas presents yesterday. XD

Let me tell you a little bit about yesterday.

I woke up at 12:30pm, listening to my brother badtalk about me downstairs to his friend about how I sleep all the time. Whatever. Four o'clock rolls around, and I finally drag myself out of bed.
But here's the kicker- I had one of those urges PMSing women get. But it wasn't for food. It was to go bikeriding. 0_o

Mind nagging at me, the first thing I do is go get the oldass bike from the basement and pump up it's long depleted tires. Then I take one ride around the coldesac, and go inside to put gloves on, since my fingers were freezing.

After that, I rode non-stop through the whole neighborhood one time. When I came home, I could hardly walk, almost fell down a couple of times, and by the time I got in the house to sit down I was told my mom wanted to talk to me over the phone. So I take the phone and some water and decide to wait on calling her while I drink this nice cold water.

But of course that was the wrong decision, because now I need to puke.

I've got this really bad fear of throwing up for some reason. So whenever I get the feeling that I might(forget the word for it) the world just STOPS for me.

Everything is put on hold, and I either sit next to a toilet until it goes away, or sit down somewhere outside where I decide to meditate and try and ignore it until it goes away.

I don't eat, drink, or talk. I sit or lay in a crouched up manner and stare into blank space, thoughts racing about the several reasons why I can't or should vomit.
In the off chance I do need to, there's a 50/50 chance I'll just swallow it.
Yeah, that whole vomit fear is going to kill my esophogus one day.

Luckily I don't spew chunks very often. XD

So anyway, I go outside with the phone and just concentrate on breathing. And ten minutes later it subsided enough so I could move around, and I called my mom up and told her I was fine and such.

I didn't eat until sometime around 10pm, and it was a hot pocket. I usually have two, but lately I've just been eating one once a day to make sure I don't, like, die.

I've been up and sitting at a computer since 11:30am today, and now it's 4pm and I still haven't eaten. I really don't feel like it, but I might force myself to after I finish this entry. Harhar.

So it gets to be like 12am and I'm in #C&T talking about sex. And the whole time it was just sex, masturbation, and more sex and masturbation. I was talking about me and my problems and apparently won the "talks about sex the most" award. No more than twenty lines passed before I started into something about sex or masturbation, sheep said. I scared sheep. XD

After that long conversation about what I masturbate to and such, and my problems and stuff, someone mentioned Fimion living near me and that maybe I just need some sort of actual social relationship to help my brain out.

So Fimion and I are like, all right, and start devising some plans. I meet Fimion at a wafflehouse on Valentine's day.

Good news? I get some semblance of a social life again!
Bad news? Well, a, I hate wafflehouse, and b, it's valentine's day. Gaia is having an event on that day. Yeah, I know, it's sad that I'm thinking about that. But I can't help it. XD

Regardles, Fimion's hot in voice and body so I'm looking forward to the meeting. I'm just a little upset because I'm not sure what I'm going to wear... Or even why the hell I'm worrying about what I'm going to wear. I blame ovulation.

That just screws everything up.

at 12:30am some really old rp buddies IM me on MSN about some mafia forum rp on a new invision free board. I look at it, and aside from thinking that whoever made the 15 bazillion forums(one for each thread) was on drugs, I think "Hey, maybe it's not a bad idea."

It's not uncommon for me to get RP requests- a lot of people are all "Zomg I love your style grace me with your elegance in my rp!"(well, maybe not like that, but that's what it feels like).

I used to get them every other day when I was in bartont own, and I'd get them literally every day when I was still in chat rooms. Hell, some things about popularity are just cool.

But ever since I started the guild, got out of Barton Town, and just generally became inactive(for RPing, anyway) I haven't gotten anything, so someone IMing me out of the blue from the old days is kind of cool. I've been rping for about seven years now, so I know some PRETTY OLD people. XD

ANyway, I read all the information and it's mafia-based. This relates me back to DJ Twista's(I think that was the guy who started it) gang RP thread, Ports Vs. DJs.

That was THE ONLY THREAD in the HISTORY of my seven years where I was KICKED OUT. Yes, I was kicked out of the thread. And I tried to get an actual answer out of why, and he wouldn't give me any other reason than "the members don't like the way you rp." That was a shot in the ego, but I took it. Rather well, actually, since normally I'd blow a pothole or something.

Point being, the only gang rp I played in, I got kicked out after my first post, so when it comes to a mafia rp I'm kind of hesitant. I've never done mafia before, and like I said, the only gang thing I did I get kicked out of.
SO I said to them(the people asking me to rp on the invionfreeboard) that they would have to guide me like a noob through EVERYTHING.

I'm not going to exert any extra effort to contact the GM and ask her a barrage of questions I'm not even sure I'm going to ask yet, so I probably just won't end up playing there. But the offer was a nice reminsence(sp).

Other than that, I need to find the talent release forms and film this damn commercial and call the cast before I kill myself. >_<

Oh, and if anyone can give a detailed step-by-step guide on how to output to VCR using a camera, DCR connections(the red, white, yellow cable things?) and a video capture card(and oh yes a VCR) please dear god PM it to me.