I'm getting really tired of losing sleep cause of these ******** nightmares I keep having. I know I see my stupid a** doctor next tuesday but I really don't want to see him. He's so freakin stupid and doesn't god damn listen to my issues and I only have like a few mintues to explain myself. Since he constantly busy with other paitents, but right now I don't ******** care anymore.
I just want to ******** give up and never take medication ever again. I know I need my medication to change but he refuse to do so. So when I do see him I'm having my mom come in to my appt to get him to ******** listen.
I'm really get sick and tired of all this ******** s**t that keeps happening including these god damn nightmares. I feel as I can't get rid of them or do anything to prevent them at all. I've also been feeling worthless and non-existing lately though I know in my mind that I'm not. Well sort of, but in my heart I feel as this is all true.
I don't blame all this on me being bi-polar or my other disorders, though some of is caused by my disorders. But it's really not all my disorders fault, it's just from remembering my past and what has happen to me.
I guess I just needed to vent again to feel better but sadly I don't feel any better just worse in a way I think. Sorry to the people that read this and think differently of me or feel as they've failed which they haven't.
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