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To big for a staus so i'll post it here for now until I delete it later.

All gone, just like that gone up in flames. Well fine cause ya know that just made everything worse a sipmle im sry your sry lets star over would've worked but no complete seperation. The agony is more then enough to bear alone. What now hm? I dnt know i can't do anything. I can't lash out I want to but its not me and it would be pointless small victory but loss of the war. Im stuck, deadlocked. Everything would've been so much easier just to rebuild things not smash em down even more. Great now im in a pessimisstic mood and probably will have this on my mind for a while. Stupid life not being fair. And again why do I bother writting this now so that they may see what I am thinking? It is only going to make things worse but I dont care right now I have to get this off my chest. Yeah I don't get angry or upset often but guess what I am right now ugh. But to end on a lighter note I get to buy a new song I've been wanting tomorrow. heh I've changed been stirpped of my outer shell reveiling what is buried within. BAH! I use that line on others not on myself. I am a descrbtive writer who excells in the performance arts. Yes I have a large vocabulary and understanding of the english language, but sometimes I get furstrated and can't help but to let others know what is on my mind then through writing it where others can view it. If this is offensive to you well all well I'll apologize later. Arg...the only thing that would calm me right now is music currently as I listen to The barber of seville....Music can tame the beast within. I hope things can get strightened out cause I really want them to. Honestly I am more upset that this has taken place but I want everything to be fixed and return to the way they were or perhaps even better then before. Talk with me I want to fix it you know who you are as i right these final words it is specfically targeted at you. Please lets talk and works this out I want this to work, this is the time when the pen is mighter then the sword. So again I reiterate, lets talk please.