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Yeah, its true school its coming...Im kind of excited. I mean, last year before I leave high school and city just so I can attend college. Its really refreshing but I guess the biggest challenge will be having not my family near me. And how abou my friends? Well I love them to death and I would do anything for them, (except skiping classes, unless it is an emergency) but I can live without them. I mean, dont misudnertand me. I have move from cities and even country but I am still with touch with some of them (which I consider my bestties) and it feels the same thing. Distance wasn't an obstacle to stop a friendship bond, I still best friends with my junior high bestie, Marilu. I met her when I was 13 and we still talk the same way via e.mail. And there's many other examples I can give; however, I am guessing family will be another thing. I am very, very used to be with them. When I was younger, I used to say I won't marry anyone just to be near them...that's how close we are.

Leaving the house will meant that I will become a visitor whenever I stay a while in my home. 'Cause I wont be returning after college its done. I'm going to be 23 years old and I would love to have a life for myself. I have many thoughts in my head. I may study a masters degree or travel around the world with my best friends or even both. I don't know what life has prepared in those gaps. There's very certain things I would love to do, like being an author, an artist, have a family and a enterprise and helping people. I have my vision already in my head, but I haven't plan each day, week, month or year. So, before every of my goals can be accomplished, there will be some other circumstances...and those are the gaps of my life.

I thought growing would be the most amazing thing ever, because when I was 14, all those changes I went through put me in a very dark mood and the only thing I ever wised was to finish my teenager years and become an adult. Though, it is just about enjoying the ride. I lived so many cool stuff, I met very awesome people and I cried a lot. (No kidding, I am sensitive) But all that drama really inspires me. We get to live each stage once, so try to live it as much as you can.
We all have fears (Uff, I have tons of them) but I would rather overcome then than hidding, 'cause it is by doing so when we lose the greatest chances of our lifes. If I was fearful of leaving my friends in Mexico, I wouldn't have moved. If I was fearful of talking, I wouldn't have got the money for my trip to the East cost. I mean, we should move foward.

Hahaha, guess I went kinda too far. Ok, back to the main topic. School its school, easy as that. To be honest, I don't like that much the school Im going to (I would rather go back to Garey High) but if I go back, I would be hidding... Cause, I don't have many nice memories of the first semester there. It was so hard to make friends and so forth. I am shy, and I have to change that. So, if I go back to Garey (where I have millionths of friends in every period) I won't overcome that fear. So, I guess everything has a reason. Ok, to finish this...school its to prepare yourself for the real deal. If you hated it, then you would hate real life too which can be ten times easier or ten times worse depending on how you used what you learned in those school days. wink

Peace out &
Deni out.