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losing myself
a few days now iv been feeling totally different from who i am i cant explain it yesterday my sister betrayed me i snapped i pulled at my hair my eyes burned like they were on fire its like the other me dark star or maybe i have another self too idk but it feels like she takes over whenever im mad i listen to music i dont even like music above betrayal revenge hate iv been betrayed by alot of people amanda my ex bestfriend too this day i burn wilth a burning hatred cause of and now my sister but i love my sister but hate her i can no longer trusts her its like the other me is warning me to stop trusting ppl only trust myself maybe it is dark star she was betrayed long ago by cyan and momokermeru who she thought was her love ishni and she was betrayed by her son as well i think shes trying to protect me she comes out whenever im angry hurt or betrayed she takes over me i can remember the feelings but its like a burning fire is in me iv been hurt as has dark star i feel her pain and she feels mine afterall we are the same but this hurt this hate is taking over me i feel as if im slipping further away into the darkness its becoming who i am and im scared of embracing it idk what to do its winning its as if dark star because of the hurt and betrayal before and now my pain and betrayal has taken over her she loves ishni but thats it she hates everyone else she has tried to spare me that pain of being betrayed and hurt but she couldnt somebody help me plz calmn her calmn my heart my heart is hurt because of all the pain betrayal i want it to stop its corrupting her
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