Well folks, it's about that time again. Picarri is at the end of her imaginary rope, and as luck would have it, there's an angry midget at the other end sawing away with a menacing grin. If that image isn't enough to scare you, the rest of my story will.
I'm on the verge of losing my mind, and possibly doing something I might regret. It's getting harder and harder every day for me to retain my sanity and be a helpful member of society. I knew from the start that raising a child would be difficult, but I didn't know that I'd be doing it on my own. Don't take that the wrong way, Jon and I are still together, but with how little we see each other now I might as well just be a single mother. We were in a car accident about a year ago that left us unable to stay in our own apartment, due to not having transportation. So, we were left with no choice but to move in with his family until we could get our own vehicle again.
And as I've said in the past, his family hates me, so you can only imagine how difficult that was on my nerves. Well, to make a long story short, a whole bunch of bad things happened, I got blamed for it, and was thrown out. Fine. I hated it there anyway. But now, Picarri is forced to stay with her grandparents again, and basically is put in a situation where she's the only one raising her 16 month old son. Jon barely comes to see me anymore, and when he does he acts as if he can't wait to get away from me. It really hurts me to see him acting like that, and makes me question whether or not it's worth trying to save this relationship. I don't want to be with him if the only reason is because of the baby. I'd rather us go our separate ways, as opposed to forcing ourselves into something we aren't happy with. But of course, it's not something that can be easily resolved, considering how often unwanted parties interfere with our relationship...
So, to all who worry for Picarri, I thank you. I have a few things in mind for myself, and I'll be sure to let you all know what's going to happen in my life as soon as I know myself. So please, give me your support in the only way you can, and keep the love flowing. heart Thank you, my friends! heart
I'm on the verge of losing my mind, and possibly doing something I might regret. It's getting harder and harder every day for me to retain my sanity and be a helpful member of society. I knew from the start that raising a child would be difficult, but I didn't know that I'd be doing it on my own. Don't take that the wrong way, Jon and I are still together, but with how little we see each other now I might as well just be a single mother. We were in a car accident about a year ago that left us unable to stay in our own apartment, due to not having transportation. So, we were left with no choice but to move in with his family until we could get our own vehicle again.
And as I've said in the past, his family hates me, so you can only imagine how difficult that was on my nerves. Well, to make a long story short, a whole bunch of bad things happened, I got blamed for it, and was thrown out. Fine. I hated it there anyway. But now, Picarri is forced to stay with her grandparents again, and basically is put in a situation where she's the only one raising her 16 month old son. Jon barely comes to see me anymore, and when he does he acts as if he can't wait to get away from me. It really hurts me to see him acting like that, and makes me question whether or not it's worth trying to save this relationship. I don't want to be with him if the only reason is because of the baby. I'd rather us go our separate ways, as opposed to forcing ourselves into something we aren't happy with. But of course, it's not something that can be easily resolved, considering how often unwanted parties interfere with our relationship...
So, to all who worry for Picarri, I thank you. I have a few things in mind for myself, and I'll be sure to let you all know what's going to happen in my life as soon as I know myself. So please, give me your support in the only way you can, and keep the love flowing. heart Thank you, my friends! heart
