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Why Are You Doing This To Me?
Damn it,Cody...For the love of God,why do you keep coming back for more?Why can't you just leave me alone?Just stop trying to confuse me into thinking that I made a mistake on leaving you.I left you for good reasons and you know that.I just can't deal with you anymore.How could you say that this song relates to how you feel about me now?If that was true then I would have noticed that you really did care about me,but,yet,I didn't.So it's another one of your lies.And it's 12 am here and I'm actually writing a journal on you again..I know you're lying but the more you tell me,the more confused I get,and I don't know what to do anymore.

Mandy,oh Mandy please tell him to stop..Please..I hate the pain that I feel because of him.He asks too much of me,and he's returned to using guilt trips on me again.This is why I can't and won't ever go back with him.I know what he will do to me and I know it will end up like last time.I don't want to get hurt by him again or by anybody else the same way that he always did.Countless times I forgave him and gave him chances.He went and he screwed it all up and threw it back at my face.He took advantage of everything I did for him...I just can't do it anymore..I can't talk to him anymore because I know what he will try to do to me..He tells me things that don't mean anything to him and are just his lies to get me back.It hurts so much..Just so much..He won't take no for an answer..I have lost my patience with him now.If he continues I don't know what I will do,I just want him to stop and to leave me alone.I can't continue feeling like this because of him or else I'll go insane!!It hurts more and more with each and everything he continues to tell me..I hate the questions he's beginning to ask me.That's none of his business..He asked me something I told him to never ask me again..He won't leave me alone,I want him to leave me alone!!Everything I say he turns back at me!How could he blame everything he has done on me?I was never part of anything he did!!

I'm just tired..I can't keep up with him anymore,,and my head hurts a lot now because of all the crying I did....How could he just say..'I love you,' and have no feeling behind it?What kind of a person is he to not feel anything at all or notice what he is doing is wrong?...I want to stop writing so I can sleep now...Goodnight guys....






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Garynook
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commentCommented on: Thu Mar 19, 2009 @ 01:23pm
I hate sitting here with no power to do anything about it... please dear know that you can always talk to me about it.. I know you don't like it but I just want you to know that because I care alot about you.-hugs tightly- so very much.. crying


commentCommented on: Fri Mar 20, 2009 @ 03:49am
*hugs tightly* I'm sorry crying I know I can talk to you about anything but I feel that if I talk about him that things will get very awkward and then we won't talk for a while ><;And me wuv talking to chu so I avoid it as much as I can T-T but then this happened and I just don't know if I can talk to you about it.And it bothers me so much. I'm sorry ><



Kookyfan
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Garynook
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commentCommented on: Fri Mar 20, 2009 @ 09:07pm
sweetheart you can tell me about anything. I love you and I won't avoid you even IF things do get awkward... especially not when you are in distress. It's all okay dear.


commentCommented on: Sat Mar 21, 2009 @ 07:14am
Okays then..*cuddles*..oh by the way,I told you I can bore you to sleep...Especially when I have this horrible fear of talking if I don't usually speak to you. sweatdrop



Kookyfan
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