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Yes, "twitter-pattion," or as it is now commonly refered to as: "stinking love."
Recently, I have been crushing on the same guy that I first started liking in 8th grade. Before that, I had a crush on a different guy for about 3-4 years. My loyalty knows no bounds, even if the person i'm crushing on doesn't seem to notice me or my feelings....
Love is definitely tough for me. Mostly because when I like someone, I find that it is hard to hold an intelligent conversation with said persona for over a minute. The longest amount of time that I have taked to the person I am crushing on--let's now call him Naru-kun, for short--is about three minutes. This was a new record-breaking feat for me.
Naru-kun is the type of guy that has lots of friends, including girls, but he doesn't appear to have a girlfriend, yet, which many find to be quite surprising. I am one of those that are surprised.
Not only is Naru-kun nice--okay maybe not always--but he's also quite funny and smart, too. Not to mention that he's not hard to look at, but that's beside the point... He's been in orchestra with me since 6th grade, but it was only when we reached 8th grade that I started to notice him... I don't know what to do!
Maybe he's not perfect at all and I'm just blinded by this fake love? Perhaps he's actually a womanizer? What then? Arrghle!
I wish that I could get over him, and soon. I kind of already know that he doesn't like me. In 8th grade, a friend, or at least former friend, of mine told Naru-kun that I liked him. She said, myfriend that is, that Naru said that he didn't like me that way and that thing between us should remain the way they are now: just friends. The bad part of all this is that I still foolishly like him. Perhaps it's because he talks to me more now, or that he says good-bye to me and says my name, too.
When he does these nice things, I sometimes wish he wouldn't. It just gives me a false sense of hope. If he doesn't like me, I wish he would just ignore me completly so that I can have a clean break. Be mean, I don't care! Just--if you don't like me, leave me alone! I want to move on already! I can't take this pain any longer....
---Annabelle