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I am slowly fading...
watching the colors fade into nothing
but blackness. And nothing but
loneliness...
I am slowly dying,
feeling the heart constrict under
unhealthy pressures and old
habits.
And I am slowly loosing the sanity
that once taught me to look at the
world optimistically.
I am loosing the sanity that was
keeping me from dropping over the cold
edge and the end of life...
I am slowly fading
(so far...)
and feeling the heart die
(so long...)
And loosing the sanity..
(where did it go...?)
I am slowly
feeling the anger creep up
and I am slowly casting everyone out
for protection...
I'm slowly wanting out
(wanting in)
wanting gone!
Why can't I just say
******** it
and die without pain?
I am slowly...
slowly...
fading.
Dying.
Loosing everything that once seemed
so precious to me.
Where did it all go?
With a blink of an eye,
I turned this age,
this age in time that seems hardly priceless...,
With a blink of an eye,
I cast everyone out
and lost the place where I was alive...
For anyone to see,
the sanity is gone.
The life that once seemed so livable
just seems so
WORTHLESS!!
And I am slowly
hating myself
and slowly wanting to...
drop this pen
and drop this life.
I am just a number.
Who will miss me when I am gone,
anyways?
I'm a pitiful number.
A bar code,
if you please!
There's a bar code imprinted
on the skin,
somewhere so deep,
perhaps it's just on the
deep maroon fresh
flesh under the
skin.
See, I'm a number...
See if you care!
I dare you to
watch me fade,
and I dare you
to look into my eyes,
peer into the breaking heart
and see the heart slowly end!
I AM WORTHLESS!!!
(worthless)
See the sanity go!
See the sanity leave!
(So long...It's gone)
Drop the ******** pen,
end this poem!
I'm loosing the sanity!
I am slowly
DYING!
I want to die!!
Don't you see!
It's all gone!
(gone!)
Let it be over!
Let it end...
Let it slowly...
fade.
Disappear.
Die.
 Deceased Poet · Thu Mar 12, 2009 @ 02:49am · 0 Comments |
