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Well, hmm. Today I cleaned up a lot of crap in my room and got rid of a lot of it. I found my baby book and read a lot of bull that my biological parents put in it. They said crap like "We love you so much" and "We'll never let anything hurt you." And I was sitting there feeling like a hole was being ripped in my heart but laughing at how goddamn ironic it was that it turned out that they were the ones who were hurting me all this time. I can learn to forgive, but I will never forget. And I doubt that I will ever be able to forgive them for what they've done. I met a new friend, John, and I've realized that it's a lot easier to talk to a complete stranger than it is to talk to one of your closest friends. He helped to kinda slap me in the face and say (in my own blunt version of things) "Wake the hell up and quit wallowing in self pity. It's pointless and will only make you feel worse. So get your a** up and do something besides think about your depression." It made me feel better. blaugh Current song that describes how I feel: Through Glass, by Stone Sour.
I have decided to put a song here for every entry from now on. I'm getting kinda curious about whether or not anyone will read the "Wall of Emo". It was named by my friend Kristina, who is convinced that I'm emo. Eh, well. sweatdrop I guess that I just needed a slap in the face courtesy of Reality, or, in this case, John. Well, I suppose that's all for now. MUSIC TIME!!!
"I'm looking at you through the glass, Don't know how much time has passed. Oh, God, it feels like forever And no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, Sitting all alone inside your head. 'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass, Don't know how much time has passed, All I know is that it feels like forever, And no one ever tells you that forever feels like home, Sitting all alone inside your head. And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you. And it's the stars, the stars, that lie to you. And it's the stars, the stars that shine for you. And it's the stars, the stars that lie to you. Oh, and the stars, and the stars, they lie."
~Through Glass, by Stone Sour