Well, Ike has come and gone. Nancy and Chapy are still without power. I sure hope they get it soon.
Ike made me stop and think. I dunno why. I grew up in Md and we have had hurricanes there and I have been other places with Hurricanes, so why is Ike any different? Maybe it's because I am 55 now and beginning to see how many storms come and go in our lives and I don't mean weather storms.
When JJ said he didn't want to be married any more I was shocked and devastated. I mean c'mon....26yrs and now he wants out? Let's be real here, it was never really a happy marriage. But I always thought we'd be together till death. And just because I had been diagnosed with cervical cancer I didn't think he'd leave. And just after we lost our house and everything in it to a fire. Back then I thought it was the end of my world. But now, looking back I realize it was just another storm of life. We each have our own storms and whether we allow them to beat us down or not is up to us. We could just wander along waiting for someone to rescue us, or we can make a stand and decide that just like in Hurricanes, it's time to rebuild our life. Now I am not saying everything is better and life is perfect because it's not. But I did learn a few things. It's true..."What does not kill us makes us stronger". I know that I can count on ME!!! I can make it on my own if needed. And I also learned that nothing in life is certain, not love, marriage, or even family. Because I made the choice to leave NY my family there disowned me. You would have thought they would be happy I was getting out of a bad situation and starting somewhere else. I dunno,When she and her husband struck out for Florida I was sad for me and missed her, but was glad for them. Florida was not for them and they came back and I was glad for them again. My Mom even left for Florida but I was glad for her. Then she came back. But when I went to Texas, and not alone but with another sister they freaked. I got my surgery taken care of and it turned out well. A few cancerous cells, but it had not gone past that stage...hence no chemo or radiation needed.
I eventually ended up here in Arkansas with a fiance and his then 15yr old daughter. She is now 17, in her senior year at school and a member of the Ark Nat'l Guard. I am content. Which is a round-about way of saying the storms in our lives may seem to defeat us, but it's up to us to choose to rebuild our lives. And just like Hurricane Ike who knocked down Houston, when we do rebuild it will be better, stronger, and you know that you will survive. At least until the next storm!! biggrin
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