Ah, yes the old Journal. I know what some of you think of me. You either Hate, love, or envy me. Yes I know some of you might think I am fake. I assure you I am not. You might think, okay Fairy tales don't come true and who does she think she is?
To be honest I don't know who I am. I am just a girl that knows what she wants and what she can do. This is why fairy tales come true.
I had a really bad childhood. My father I hasn't been in my life since I was 5 or 6 and my mom was just unbearable. My first relationship was very abusive and I was in it for 2 years. The second one wasnt any better it was only one or two months because he whent in the Army. The rest of them broke up with me because they thought I was evil or cheated about 16 times. I just wanted someone to like me for me and to understand what I had been thought. Someone like me.
My last boyfriend was a LDR and TRIED to cheat on me. He ended up breaking up with me via text message after a concert. First thing I did was call James. Since we both liked each other (I thought he was the sexist man alive!)he said sweetie call me and I will take care of you forever. At that moment I just knew he was the one for me.
This is why Fairy tales can really come true. I waited 17 and a half years for someone to save me from all my pain. At times it was so hard to live. I even tried to get out of it. No things aren't perfect. I still have flash backs. But I am loved and for the first time since I was 5 I feel like I am home.
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I would rather be hated for who I am, than be loved something I am not.