Two weeks of bliss with my one true love, Corey, was the most amazing two weeks of my life. Sadly he came and then so quickly he was gone again. After dropping him off at the airport I cried the entire way back and even now. Its so quiet here now that he's not here. I feel so alone. I just wanted to run away and not even come back home. Run away to Oregon maybe? I don't know. But somewhere. Having him here with me was all I ever wanted and everything I desired. Getting the chance to hold each other and to kiss him and sleep next to him at night was so wonderful. I already know now that I'm alone again I won't be able to sleep tonight because I know he won't be there with me.
We've learned so much more from each other that we would have never come to learn unless being around each other in real life. I got to learn some of his habits and the way he is physically and behaves himself. It was amazing. I may have never thought this day would come, that two years later we'd actually get to meet. But now that he was here and now gone again kills me. I wanted to either go with him or drag him back with me and never let him go.
We had such a great time and I wish it wouldn't have ended so soon. First movie in theaters we saw together was Iron Man. I really loved be able to see a movie with him. It made me so happy beyond my understanding. I loved it so much I just wanted to stay out all night and never go back home. Every day we went out I didn't want the day to end. We went out to eat and being at a restaurant with him was really nice and romantic. Being able to go places with him in public and be seen hand in hand felt so amazing. We went and saw several more movies like The Mummy 3 and The Dark Knight. We went shopping and took a photo together and he bought me two games we can play together online. At my house we would sit around in my room and take pics everyday and play video games and joke around and snuggle and kiss and watch movies. It was so wonderful. On the last day we went to Fun Fun Fun and to McDonalds and played mini golf. I had lots of fun but I was also a bit depressed too because I knew the next day he was leaving already. Actually, the last three days or so I was a bit depressed and would shed at least one tear every night and morning. I never wanted these wonderfully amazing days to ever end. I had never been so happy before. I am definitely certain that I want to move over to Oregon with him. He's everything I ever wanted in my life. He's the one I've been searching for and I'm so blessed to ave found him. Thank you Gaia for bringing us together.
The day is ending so fast and I don't really want it to because I know I won't be able to sleep tonight. This morning everything still seemed almost ok. We woke up next to each other and played around and laughed together. But once my mom got home and said lets go it felt like my heart got stabbed. And the feeling won't go away. At the same time I don't think I want it to. I wish we had more time together. The second I walked into my room the tears already came rolling down my face. His suitcase and all his stuff was gone and so was he. And now I'm sitting on my couch all alone. I can't even eat because to me nothing else matters to me anymore. All I need is him to be here in my arms. I don't really even feel like living right now.
I miss you so much Corey. heart
If only you were still here so I can kiss you some more.
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