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I realized something not long ago...

...as much as I've tried to delay it, I've grown. Not just physiacally. I look at myself and I no longer see that boy I used to be...I've grown to be something else...

The choices I've made have shaped me. If there's anything about me I don't like, I've no one to blame but myself. That was a realization all on it's own. But...
There's something else...
I look this new man over...and I see something...
This man is living. This man is loving. This man is scared, and yet...this man is confident.

My brother told me the other day...
"You know...I'm proud of you. Prouder than I've ever been of myself."
...I swear, what is it with my family and getting all emotional on me?
But, hearing that from my brother, really meant a lot to me...

The boy I used to be...
he was vulgar. He was perverse. He was stupid.
He was a typical boy of the world...only interested in personal gain...not really interested in Love.

Then it happened...
Love hit...

Love transformed this boy into a teenager. A teenager desperate to seek out the answers to this Love. Still a mind of the world, he failed misserably in his attempts at Love...but learned from each failure...and thus...

We have the Man that stands here today...
I look at this man, and I see a great man.
I look inside this man, and I see the boy that will never grow up.

...This Man is gonna live his life...
...and this Boy is gonna enjoy every minute of it. ^.^