~ You would say anything. And you would try anything to escape your meaningless and your insignificance. You're uncontrollable and we are unlovable... ~There was a lot of words that I wanted to believe.. but I thought and said to myself that.. "they're just words..they can't do anything to a speechless person like me.." maybe just because of this, all the words that I have are meaningless for me..
but the meaningfulness of some words is so funny really.. so funny..
I can put a smile on my face but I can't put it on my heart.. and nobody can realize that if I don't want to say.. I can seem like a person who I am not..but I am not able to be myself.. espically these days I know better that I am a really good player.. I can act to myself too but I can't convince myself also.. it's so funny.. I can cry for an another person but I can't smile for myself.. I can touch an another person but I can't feel myself.. I can say everything but I can't believe anything.. and.. Everybody can look at me but all they can see is a person who I want to show to the others.. and.. it's so funny really.. when I'm desiring to live so badly all I can do is just dying easily..~ song: "Escape" by muse.. and a last one.. (X .. I can write better things when I had a bad day .. X)
aLassea Knotwise · Thu Apr 10, 2008 @ 11:43pm · 0 Comments |