Have you ever been really good friends with someone who ended up succeeding in everything you always wanted to or used to want really badly?
I saw one of my friend's display picture on myspace today and it was of him and my other friend (Taizic is what I will call her). I had never seen that picture before so I decided to go to his pics and look at it. Then I came across a pic album entitle "Da Band" and the cover picture looked similar to the display. So I viewed the whole album. To my surprise my friends have their very own band now. My friend Taizic is the lead woman singer of a band and I was a bit crushed to see that. I would have never expected our lives and dreams to swap like that without my will.
No one has any idea how many years, days and nights all together, I would lay and stare at my ceiling for endless hours imagining myself on stage with my very own band and singing to thousands of people and touching their hearts with my lyrics. It has always been my dream to sing.
I wrote lyrics all the time and I would have made them take me somewhere if it wasn't for all the discouragement I got for that silly dream. My grandmother told me only people who can actually sing are able to make it to a musical career. My mother, I just felt that she would have never allowed me to go out and try and start my own band. I wouldn't have had time anyway. Unlike most teenagers my age, I had a little brother I had to help raise, my mother never let me go anywhere at all. I was always locked in the house all day long everyday. And then my friend who started the band with Taizic forced me to sing to him one day because he wanted to see if I was good enough to be in his band. I failed I guess. He told me my piano playing sucked and my singing needed work.
From that very day, I gave up trying to teach myself to play piano and I stopped singing to people and writing songs everyday. Now when I actually write a song its only because there's something going on in my life and that's the only way I can put it in writing to where no one will understand what it says. A few weeks ago I wrote my first song in months. I told my friend to take a look at it .... he had absolutely nothing to say about it. Yet he always has something to say about Taizic's songs.
Taizic taught herself how to play the piano professionally, she actually knows how to sing right. And now she has run off with my precious dreams. She stole the mic right out of my hands before I could even breathe a verse.
I guess things don't always turn out the way they do in your mind.
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