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I have nothing left to remember you by, and I wish that you are here
I want to feel your presence against me, and hear you within these ears
I know you are safe now, where ever you may be
But now you are no where in sight, once again you left me

I could never understand why you had to go, or why I felt so weak
Cause I was only little when you left, I thought this would have less effect on me
In the end I guess it comes down to what you hold close
And to what extent you are willing to give up and let it go.

In the end there is no happiness when it comes to a death
Cause no matter what happens in the after life, on earth there’s no more breaths.
The inability to hold that person close and show them how you feel
To apologize for your mistakes and mend the broken seals.

There is no chance to tell them you love them, cause it’s to an empty vessel
Your feelings you have to hold them in and try to make them settle.
It’s just not fair cause I didn’t have a chance to make amends
But I guess that all in all, it’s just not fair in the end

I’ve all but said goodbye, cause I’m not ready to let you leave
So much of my life I’ve felt so alone, and felt so incomplete.
I wish that I could at least get a fair chance to say goodbye
So I don’t breakdown completely and get consumed by all the lies

The only reward that comes from this, is the knowledge you are in heaven
The only benefit that I can find, is That time with Jesus you are spending
I’m tired of these thoughts, and these memories that keep me crying
It feels like every day, a new part of me is dieing.

You said you would be there with me, and help to keep me safe
Now I can’t even insult you or have a chance to give you praise.
It isn’t enough that your grave is less then 5 miles away
Cause I know that what truly matters is beyond the reaches of space.

There is no cure when it comes to someone you have lost
Cause no matter what the price may be, it is never worth the cost.
This poem has many subtleties, connected to more then just graves
But also the loss of relationships that cannot be saved.

I can’t keep going on in this world, just so I can get let down
It’s just so much harder to maintain control without you around.
I’ve lost so much in such a short time it’s almost ridiculous
The people I thought loved me now adays just seem oblivious.

For me, I just don’t know what is harder to accept
The fact they don’t love me, or the fact I am so easy to just forget
All my life I just wanted everyone else to be happy as can be.
But I guess in the end, I guess that shouldn’t have mattered to me.

It’s always them before me, cause I really don’t give a damn about myself
Then again who has these days, cared about me that is, I always ask myself.
I want so bad to be in control over my life and distinguish between the past
But the ones who “love me” always seem to just hold me back.

Who really understand me out of everyone who says that they do?
I bet not even half of them know what i really go through
But that’s fine cause that is how it’s will be and how it has been
Cause every day I look behind me and wonder who will really change… in the end.