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I texted him 15 minutes ago. Grr. xp

Anyway, I had to work tonight. Which was odd. Because I've never worked on a week night. Just weekends. But there was this huge party in the back so the servers were busy and wouldn't have time to seat people, buss tables, and work the register. So I did all of that for them. Chris made me stay an extra 45 minutes though because it got busy. xp But he thanked me when he said I could go. And that made me happy. mrgreen

I think they gave me the 2 hours (or rather, 2 hours and 45 minutes) rather than someone else they could have randomly picked because I'm taking the 30th off to see Spamalot.

I still need to get Kathleen her Christmas present. We were going to get it after work today but nooooo my mom decided that she didn't feel like wasting more time before going home.

I also need to get Jenna something.

s**t.

I don't know what to get heeerrrrr.

I think I have homework...

Oh well!

And I just lost my train of thought due to my mom. She always does that to me.

Oh yeah, we got back PSAT scores. And mine sucked. I got REALLY shitty scores, especially compared to last year's. Seriously, who actually gets worse scores after taking the PSAT for the second time? I know I'm not getting that lame scholarship thing for having really good scores.

Gahhh ******** standardized tests. I can't ******** DO them. I hate them. All they show is how well you can actually do a standardized test. Not to mention they make me feel pressured and I rush through them and make stupid mistakes because of the lame time limits. I only got 46 out of the possible 80 points on the math section.

...And I'm supposed to be 2 years ahead of my grade level for math. So yeeeeeah, that really pissed me off. But I hate math almost as much as I hate science. I didn't do very well on the Critical Reading or Writing Skills sections (although I really think most of the answers I chose should be right. I never agree with the answers for standardized tests because they SUCK! They should be abolished) either, but they were at least over 50. Close to 60. But still not ANYWHERE near what I consider myself to be. I really don't want to take the ******** SATs. I need to find out if Australian colleges honestly even give a s**t about them. Some colleges here in the U.S. don't even care about them. I've heard the SATs are easier though. And they've got an essay. And I totally pwn life at essays.

I was really emo about it at first, but then I found a few other people in my classes who got similar scores and were really pissed about it. So at least I'm not alone.

s**t. I just missed House. Nooooooo. Oh well. This new season isn't as good as the past ones anyway. I miss Wilson with how his hair used to look like in the first season. Now it's boring! xp

Oh, and Tiegen and I sort of bonded during Stats because the same person doesn't like either of us and she's extremely immature. So we laughed over it. And I never get to do that with anyone other than very few people, so it's nice to get things off of my chest once in a while. It's like the time I went to Projekt Revolution over the summer with Kiri and I was still extremely upset and angry over events that had happened around April/May with a certain person. And my feelings related to a bunch of Linkin Park songs. And when you're at a Linkin Park song, you freaking SCREAM your heart out. And it made me feel better. I think I need a good scream-along every now and then. I wish I lived out in the middle of nowhere so I could go out somewhere and scream until I felt better. It sucks when you have neighbors around. That would be kind of embarrassing. I already get embarrassed when my mom and I have fights and we yell so loudly at each other that our neighbors can hear us. ninja

Anyway, I'm just rambling now because I'm STILL waiting for James to get on.

Oh yeah, he called me last night and we talked for an hour as I was snuggling into my bed trying to get warm and comfortable before falling asleep. I love hearing his voice before I drift off into sleep. It's so amazing. And he's so sweet and he makes me feel so alive. And my self-esteem (I've always, always had self-esteem issues) always shoots up after a conversation with him when he goes on and on about all of the good things about me. I love it. whee He makes me feel so fuzzy inside. Whenever I'm by myself I can't help but daydream about him; I can't help but smile. I repeat conversations over the phone with him over and over in my head and I remember all of the amazing dreams about him (usually us snuggling--it seems like a boring dream, whoo snuggling! xd , but they make me so happy).

Life's got its shitty moments, but talking to him makes it all go away.

Even if my dad literally reads every conversation online James and I have together. rolleyes I love how my parents totally trust me. xp Because I'm tooooootally one of those girls going out partying late and having sex and being a total slut. Yeeep. Mmmhmmm. That's totally the girl I am. rolleyes