It's been a while...well a LONG freaking time since I've written a journal. I've been on gaia like maybe 5 times and the longest has been for maybe half an hour to check my messages. But ya...gay-ness. So what have I been up to you ask? Same old CRAP homework >.>
I have had hours of homework a night...hours of studying...I spent so long doing homework and assignments cause I need and want these high marks. Like basically I force myself to do awesome...it's how I actually feel good about myself. The higher the mark the better I feel but at the same time I always need to do better.
Kirk helps me a lot...but lately he's been working like 30-40 hours a week...so he;s gone. We still see each other when we can and talk over MSN all the time, though it's not the same.
I'm scared to DEATH of University....it seems so hard and I can see so many break downs in my future...I don;t want to do it. I wanna like run away from it...I don;t want to do any of thise anymore...
Then I think about how much I have, how lucky I am compared to 3rd world people...I suck >.>
 Tama is in my Soul · Sat Nov 10, 2007 @ 02:44am · 2 Comments |
