yea im off 4 college, lonely as hell, aint got no boyfriend, not thinkin of gettin a new 1, too caught up on the last one, i said some ******** up s**t to my ex outta pain and just wanted 2 get rid of the pain. Wasn't right but i cant change that even though i'm sorry. I know he aint comin to my school wit me now... he said it him self, hell no, and think that i just want him here 2 make him feel worst, but that's not the case. Tryna move on is hard, tryna not look back at somethings is hard, knowing that he's probably never gonna pick up the phone is hard 2 but things happen 4 a reason. I got one guy kinda chasing me around campus, but i dont want him...ew X_X and i got my guy friend who takes me out alot tryna be a boyfriend and DAMN i cant do it. I keep tellin myself that if i was 2 get back wit my EX, it wouldnt work maybe when i get outta college if he's up 2 it but then again things have changed now, so that's impossible through the sight of it now.It's like i'm all alone now, like i gotta do something productive now, cuz i dont have my ex to be there to cheer me up anymore, cuz he got his own life 2 worry about and i know he has 2 move on and i dont wanna hold him back so i guess one day i should stop calling even though it hurts 2 but all i want is 2 at least kno he's fine( cuz i care ). but i have 2 define me now and build my future cuz no one and not even a man can do that 4 me. "We all sometimes walk a lonely journey but in the end, we are all we have to thank"