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I should just fess up to the journal. I don't think anyone will ever go though my journal so I'll just spill out my feelings...

Okay, I try not to complain cause marley ((A dude I know)) Told me I complain too much so I tens to try to keep it in... which is making me worse.
My family tends to ignore me and its starting to annoy me and making me slightly depressed... I feel too different for society and alone in the world but I've felt that for about 3 years now..
My dad likes my other siblings better than me. No, I'm not just saying that!
He's teaching My twin brother how to shoot a gun and giving CDs to my sister and going shopping with her. What is he doing for me?!
NOTHING!
I feel like an only child cause my brother trys to pretend like I don't matter and my sister likes to leave the house alot so I'm left alone to much... I miss my old family. My sister use to spend time with me. Not just to get away from my mom but to be with me. My brother was really close to me but now he's... will... he hates me. He yells at everybody alot and I feel likes its all my fault cause I use to pick on him. But i was just playing with him. I miss Sam. He was killed by a truck on May 17th. I feel like crying but I can't I just don't cry unless its during movies... I only like sad movies because of that reason. I don't know who to tell... Theres a poster in my class room that says "Sometimes you have to be Silent to be Heard" I don't think thats true because my feeling might be the death of me someday...