Yes,
I'm angry!
I'm pissed at myself!!!!
I'm angry at myself and I'm not sure!
I really don't understand why.
I'm pissed off at myself which makes me angry at others and I really don't know why.
I mean, I have reasons to be mad at myself it's just, I don't know why I'm mad at myself for everything all at once right now.
It makes no sence.
I can list why for all those really awsome people who care enough to read my journal because you love me. Really, very glad for you all.
I'm angry because
I don't feel very confodent in myself. I'm not selfconsious ((I know I'm spelling things wrong but I'm really mad right now)) but I feel small.
Me and Mikki and Anne were talking about it.
I don't want help. It's asking too much of them. I don't want to complain to them.
I want a damn hug but if I just randomly hug them they'll know that there is something wrong
That's another thing.
I'm so damn independent so I can show everyone that I can do things for myself but when I want help I feel small bacause I can't do it.
Another thing, Marley yelled at me a year ago about how I complain too much and now I can't get it out of my head. I feel wrong when I complain and no one can get rid of that.
Sometimes I just want to curl up in my closet like I normally do and cry. I'm not going back to scratching myself. It hurt too much and I'm thankful for that to not be a habbit.
I want a hug so bad right now.
I just don't understand how I could be so...sad and angry.
I want to scream but that would hurt my head even more
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