Ok...mood swings...they are PISSING ME OFF. I get so annoyed at people for nothing...I'm hitting people...yelling...more so then I usually do and it's angering me..and scaring me. I'm not acting like myself and I can't control myself or my actions. I wish...I just wish I could force myself to act like I want to, stop my mood from swinging randomly and into such extrems. Bah...stupid...body or mind..or brain or whatever >.<
Also...I am sort of starting to look forward to school. To give me something challenging to do...to make me think and such. The bad thing that makes me not want to go to school is the fact that Kirk won't be there. I don't know how I'll make it without him, I mean like whenever I have a bad day he can make me feel so much better. He won't stop till I tell him what's wrong which is some times annoying but in most cases it's something I need to do so I don't keep being all sad and s**t. Along with that...I don't know when I'll be able to see him! He'll be busy with collage (classes and homework and such) then work and then he'll be able to see me BUT I'll also have homework and a lot of studying to do...This is my last year and I have to make it count to get into the Uni I want.
Life isn't fair but hey I got it going really good in my opinion. Yes I'll have to adjust to being without Kirk but I'll do it I guess, I'll have to and it sucks but a lot worse could happen. I do never see him again - ya that would kill me x.x
Anyways...I try to stay positive but it's hard when I know that Kirk will be gone...he won't be as near to me as I wish...Spazz your right...thinking is bad for me...make me stop >.< LOL
 Tama is in my Soul · Wed Jul 25, 2007 @ 09:20pm · 2 Comments |
