Ok so I've never really been rich or whatever but I've always had what I've needed. I've gone through hard times and been on a tight rope as to what I can spend but never like this. My dad was laid off a few years back but it wasn't as bad as this. My mom is very sick and she can't work, so she's getting "employment" ensurence which is bascially nothing >.> And we are really tight right now. And it's scary...I'm sure almost everyone out there knows how I feel...or how even more so cause they've been in a worse situation.
But ya...I have to watch everything I spend (which is nothing except for what I eat)...But this why I wish I had a job..so I could help out, pay for myself...and why I am so pissed off I'm not getting a job. stare Life is frustrating BUT many things are getting me afloat...my main of course (after my family) is my bf Kirk...he is SO amazing. He's there through my stressed out moments, the depressing ones...the ones where nothing is said and just a touch from his hand makes me happy. I don't know how he's done it...but in a way he's tamed my depression and helped me through it. I don't know where I would be without him...I would be fine I guess but I wouldn't be progressing as I am.
It's funny how by a touch of your hand, my day seems brigther
The way you listen to me amazings me, for I hate half the s**t I say
You're making me love myself...something I never thought I would be able to do
I'm so close to you...I would never have let this happen in the past
So much rides on you and I trust you completely
You have my heart craddled in your hands and it beats at a steady pace, knowing you are looking after it
You were my past, you are my present and you sure as hell are my future
My love, my only...
heart Kirk heart
Ok ya that was gay as ******** (2 seconds to write)...but hey I'm bored...and missing him...and in love...so shut it LOL
 Tama is in my Soul · Tue Jul 24, 2007 @ 02:18am · 3 Comments |
