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She sat at the corner store table.
Traffic and people roared by.
She sipped from a paper cup and flipped a page in her book that she pretended to read.
The wind wisped through her hair.
When was he going to get here?...
She shifted in the metal chair.
Passing people were oblivious of her.
She wore a long sleeved shirt to hide her mistakes of the past.
Deep mistakes that wern't mistakes in her mind.
Each "mistake" had a story.
Each "mistake" bled for hours.
Each "mistake" was caused by him.
She glanced up to see him across the street.
She knew where he had been.
Not watching the football game with his guy friends like he had said.
But at another womans house.
Cheating...
Lying...
His fiery smile was alluring...decieving...
She couldn't help but stand up and smile back.
How could such beauty...such radience be waisted on him?...
He quickly looked both ways on the street and began to jog across when he stopped dead at the curb.
She held a Colt 45 aimed for his forhead.
A confused, horrified look spread across his perfect face.
She began to shake.
Shreaks from all around filled the street as people ducked down and hid from the gun.
Tears trickled down her cheeks as she chuckled to herself.
His eyes asked questions...that she answered in her head.

"Every word, every thought, every sound...

Every touch, every smile, every frown...

All the pain I've endured until now...

All the hope that I lost, you have found...

Surrender...yourself to me"

She was crying ...crying but laughing at the same time.
Her body shook with rage.
He took a step backwards, terrified.
She cocked the gun slowley.
But...then turned the gun on herself...to her temple.
She smiled under all the tears...under all the running makeup...and hair that had fallen onto her face...
Why, oh why must I be treated this way?, she thought.
Bang.