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Damn it. Alright so i have to write this all over again. It's probably not going to be as detailed. The other day when Dennis went off to the quarry without me i slept until 4:30. Then Shane called me and asked what i was doing. He asked if i wanted to go up to the lake so i told him sure if he gave me gas money. He said he'd give me 8 dollars. Then Tara called me right after and asked if i was going to the lake. I told her i was and that i would pick her up first. When she got into the car she told me that the Brown street kids were going to be there. I was on my way to get Shane and his brother when Dennis called me. He asked what i was doing and i told him i was going to the lake. He asked if i would pick him up and i told him i would. I called Shane back and lied to him telling him i had to work last minute and that i was really sorry. After i got off the phone with him me and Tara laughed about it but afterwards i kinda felt bad. Before i picked up Dennis me and Tara stopped at a side street. I had some warm rum under my car seat. I took a couple of swigs and it tasted horrible. I almost threw up. Zack was with Dennis when we picked them up. I was happy when Dennis wanted a kiss from me but then gave him that i'm kinda mad at you face and told him that i really wanted to go to the quarry that day. He told me he knew i was disappointed in him and then he explained himself. It made me feel a lot better. Then i had to stop somewhere so Zack could pick up some trees he was going to sell to someone. At the lake Dennis and Zack hung out with the mens and me and Tara when into the water for a bit. Dennis was staring at me in a strange way when i was in my bathing suit but it was really funny at the same time. Me and Tara went to lay in the sun and soon everyone else left. Dennis came down and laid next to me which made me happy. Soon after we left and I dropped Tara off at her house.

At Dennis' house i stood in his kitchen and looked at my phone while he rummaged around. His dad was staring at me and it was really weird. When Dennis left the kitchen i followed behind him. I heard him say "Don't look at that" so i put my phone away and apologized. When we got in his room he said he wasn't talking to me, that he was talking to his dad because he was checking me out. It was kinda funny but not at the same time. We took a nap and was awakened by Katie asked me if i wanted to go to this party. I told her no and that i was sleeping. She called back a couple other times and i told her the same answer. Dennis said to me that it must suck living with Kate and i told him it really does and that i'm trying not to talk to her anymore. I only think i said that because i was sleepy and grumpy but i kinda am. We woke at 10pm to head to the party. We got into my car and when we got there I asked if he wanted some of the gin that was under my seat. He told me no and that i was a weirdo for drinking gin and that it was for old people. I felt really offended in the way he said it and asked him why he has to be such a d**k. He told me i shouldn't take things so personally.

At the party there was an amazing looking pool that i wanted to hop in but i didn't want to go alone. It even had the underwater lights. No one was really in it though. There weren't tons of people i knew there and i kinda felt weird to tell you the truth. I talked to Kate and Tara but that was mostly it. I drank some of my nasty gin. I wasn't with Dennis anymore, he went off by himself. We left soon after because the keg was empty. Back at his house he said that he didn't want to end the night just yet so he wanted to do some drugs. He asked me if i wanted to do any and i told him if he was going to offer. I saw a little bump next to a line so i asked if that was for me. If i remember right he said that it was so i did the line and the bump. "or you could do it all" I didn't understand at that point but whatever. The stuff that he had was better then what he usually got. I had also drinkin' a little but i wasn't worried. He also remembered that and said that if i was worried i could snort some water and try to spit it up or something but i told him i was all good. We watched VBS [this really amazing show only on the internet]. I was feeling really good and i didn't have the urge to make smooches on Dennis which is always a feeling i don't like to experience all of the time. I just stared at the computer screen for awhile and didn't care about anything. Around 2 i think we went to bed. We woke up every once and awhile and smooched which is always enjoyable. In the morning we woke up around 10 to watch some VBS then went back to sleep. When we woke up again Dennis was getting a hold of some deals to get morphine. He did and as we were going out to do the deals it started to pour. I hadn't eaten anything all day and i was starving. I watched him do the morphine with some dope then we headed to Kyle's where I watched him eat two burgers and play a couple games of pool. Kyle got me a Popsicle which was really nice of him. I like Kyle he's a good guy.

After that we went back the Dennis'. There he read stuff and i fell asleep. When i woke up he asked me if i was having a good time. And he said that he was tired and boring because of the drugs which i believe. He found this movie "Kids" that he wanted to watch with me. But first he rolled a blunt and told me he wanted me to smoke it with him. I told him i don't really like to but that i would. He said it was midies and that it would be fine. As we were walking out to the garage he said something and i forgot what it was but i said "I will beat you up" then he said something smart so i bit his back. I didn't think it was that hard but i guess it was he yelled at me and told me that i was lucky i was a girl or he would've hit me. It kinda scared me of how mad he got but he forgot about it soon after. Back in his room i was so baked and kinda hungry. He left the room and came back with foods. He asked if i wanted any candy and then took it back and said chocolate. I looked at the package and i couldn't understand it so i figured it was Russian chocolate. I took a bite of it expecting it to be hard and it was soft. Also it was the most amazing chocolate i've ever eaten. After the movie was over I told Dennis i was going to bounce. I smooched him on the bed for a bit then got my stuff ready and smooched him some more.