So simple to smile for you
So simple to say that nothings wrong,
So simple to pretend that I haven't been happier...
But all I can do is lay on the ground and dig my fingers deeper in my heart. As the eager beat of my heart rests in a cloak of irratation. I turn my head to the shadows lurking above and watch them hold eachother under the blossems of love. I watch with perception and jealousy. My whole body cringes. My eyes pretend to see what isn't there. My mind pretends to see what I don't want to see.
I close my eyes and shred away every living feeling. Exasperated screams echo through-out my head. My entire body shakes with anger and a burning sensation of sadness. My legs turn to stone,as I close my eyes and pretend for it to be all over.
I re-awaken and they cradle me in their love. In their love, that tore me apart in every way possible. I departed from their hospitality. I scolded and shredded their help. I told them I was fine. They held eachother and smiled at me, they held eachother and lightly pressed themselves against me in warmth. I turned my back.
I looked at them once and smiled. Smiled fakly. Smiled like it was okay to sin. Smiled with hatred and sadness. The same hate and sadness that filled my heart. They smiled back and held hands. They smiled....
I watched them leave in a fountain of love, that sprinkled every flower, that covered every tree. I watched the happiness glow from their faces, I watched them kiss so passionatly...
I watched them love eachother more than I could. I held my heart in pain. I held it, and said as they finished their last words..." As I watch you two from the depths of my heart, as I see with my two eyes, to be apart of the love you two are now. Has brought me happiness. More happiness than I could ever recive. Thats why I will cry knowing I gave up a wonderful love could-have-been to see you two smile.."
 Pain-Killer 4 Dead Angels · Tue Jun 19, 2007 @ 04:01am · 1 Comments |
