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its times like this it occurs to me that we were lied to by the jetsons.... =) good times, XD so decided to write cuz i have a weird feeling that has come over me... i don't know how to describe it... i really feel the need to get out and meet new people, and make friends and st, to have good friendships again, where i can chill with someone for hours and not get annoyed, or deal with awkwardness of old friends who have nothing in common anymore... at the same time i don't trust people... every one is selfish in this world. =/ and i can't stand it. maybe im a cold hearted bh. but i'm not going to make fake friends to feel less lonely. im pretty sure i would die before i let fake, and heartless people around me again. =/ then again... who can you really trust? -_- i guess i should get to bed... i do have school tomorrow, maybe i will meet some random lesbian girl like me and we will be best friends =D or i will be the anti-social freak i can be =] either way i'm comfortable with who i am. give or take a few mood swings =D Endless Horizon* · Wed Sep 22, 2010 @ 08:53am · 0 Comments

	new?
	new?


so right now im sitting on the porch of my girlfriends house... tokin on a bowl. thinking. thinking about life, and love, and apocalypse. =D prolly cuz im baked =/ but i feel the world is dying, and mankind is too stupid to pull their heads out of their asses and see the big picture... so i suggest you prepare, instead of being vain assholes... personally im ready to survive just about anything... =) even zombies... call me crazy. but while you scramble what little you really have ill be gone. dunno why i feel the need to tell anyone who reads this stupid blog thing. but when st hits the fan, remember... i told you so. otherwise... im really sick of people here... in this rotting town... no one does anything here... i feel stuck in place. i want... need to get out... =/ too bad thats harder than it sounds... at least so im not broke living on the streets in another town >_< =/ so yeah there is a little something, from me to you. enjoi ♥︎ (she/ they/ them) ♥︎ Endless Horizon** · Sun Sep 12, 2010 @ 04:54pm · 0 Comments

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wow i haven't updated since 2006, =/ i don't really know where to start either... lets see... i go to school and such... and work... =/ my best friend lives far away in another state... i live with my girlfriend and i love her more than... foxes? =0 wha?! no... yeah totally... =) she burns with me... speaking of burning i have my mmj license =D gotta love colorado! = hmmm this journal thing feels weird... so ill call it quits for now maybe ill warm up to this again. heart bai baiz ♥︎ (she/ they/ them) ♥︎ Endless Horizon · Sat Sep 04, 2010 @ 01:12am · 0 Comments

	turning over a new... leaf? ^_^ leaves are xprettyx lol ^_^


right so pretty much everything is going greatish... i am makeing the best of my life as it happens to me... same crap happens between me and my mom... but i dont dread on it... and blow it out of proportion. so no more of that. also work... i work and i complain a lot... but its really not bad... i know because most of my friends dont have jobs... i am one of the very few... so i am just grateful that i have one... besides the money isent bad i love it lol ^_^ lets see... school... i hate school... god damn.... its like hell... but most kids say that so whats new? lol i am just glad i have friends there to get me through. ^_^ my band... is going good... i think at least... O_o we havent practiced in like forever... i am pretty sure that today will be our first practice in... 3 weeks i think... meh... we still rock...lol ^_^ lets see... lets see... my art continues to improve... i am starting a manga that i actually hope to finish... my main character is a guy named Trance and he is a wolf guy kinda like off wolfs rain... <3 he also has 3 eyes one sees the future, one past. and one present... its pretty sweet another character (trances best friend ((dont laugh at the name... i over use it...lol))) is Jayde she is a werewolf and she effin rocks... ^_^ she is in a sence a lot like me. lol minus the were wolf part lol. ok... i guess i ran out of stuff to say... so i guess last but MOST DEFFENTLY NOT least... I love my girlfriend... yes guys... you heard right... GIRLFRIEND... and i am ****** proud to be with her.... she is awsome we like.... well most of the same stuff (only difference is music) we both draw, and love anime/manga. i am able to see her ALL the time... since... she only lives like 3 blocks from me which kicks a... i love to just fall asleep in her arms heart and before i get labled... any more than i have been... i know i started to tell people that i was bi... but im not bi persay(sp) i dont want to be labled "bi" i just like who i like... why should i have a label to say who i love? thats crap... so i am attracted to who i am attracted to... got that? lol and i will most deffently not do the "bi thing" to her... cheating is cheating no matter how you look at it... ok i guess i am done now... hmmm... love ya Shea... even tho u dont have a gaia account... eek lol ^_^ byez heart Endless Horizon · Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 03:06pm · 0 Comments

	update
	update


i figured i should up date... ^_^ All is unstable with me really lotsa drama im my life.. oh well i will get over it. so.. hmm... where to start... obviously school started... my day consists of me wakeing up at 6 then going to school at 6:50 (early) hang out downstairs. play guitar or draw for (i suck at math)... uh until 7:30 then going to my first class... Spanish 2... my teacher is really cracked out... hes cool tho... idk what it is about spanish teachers.. they have mad guitar skills... he played my guitar once... O_o well after that i go to Honors English.(yes despite my horrible spelling I am smart enought to be in honors) lol that class is one of my most fun because i can be myself... (all my other classes i am very quiet, shy, and stand offish.) ANYWAY... then after that. I go to Psychology... I HATE THAT CLASS! stressed ... ... the teacher cant teach too well... but eh... i will just have to grin and bear it... then i have the hevanly sancuary which i like to call art...well pottery to be exact... i dident get advanced art because it interfered with my honors english class... crying i really wanted to take it.. oh well (through out the day i text random people... its fun since i have it now...) then LUNCH yum.. eats Choji like... ) anyway... uh.. oh then i have US HISTORY... I HATE THAT CLASS! its the same teacher as my psycology class... stressed* I mean WTF? sigh oh well then i have gemotry.. i suck at math.. period... oh ya this gets even better... for my 7th hour.. CHEMISTRY....lol im cool ... i suck at science.. and math... and i take chem... im a genius... 2 of thoes classes are junior senior classes lol... oh then i go home... after all the drama in the day i sit my lazy a down on the computer and neglect my homework... i play guitar... a whole lot now a days... lol cuz im cool... and cuz i need to practice since im in a band now..ya its called facecrime... we are kick a... heart hmmm... oh i have also been drawing... ^_^ i am actually getting quite good... but meh.. so all is going... fairly decent...i tend to get depressed from time to time...but a good conversation with Trevor or Emily usually fixes that right up... ya cuz i love them... ^_^ and cuz they are like my bestest friend in the whole wide world... blah blah blah.. idk what to put now... um.. i guess this is about it.. owwy my tummy hurts.. crying meh... good night ♥ Endless Horizon · Thu Sep 14, 2006 @ 04:52am · 2 Comments

	its been a while since i posted here
	its been a while since i posted here


sarah is depressed ninja i dont know why im so out of it. i have no reason to be i have great friends an awsome boyfriend. my work isent bad. nor are the people i work with. i have fun all the time with friends. i am just totally depressed over all everything is great with me. except everything about me is just wrong. i try to do whats best. for me i just dont suceed in anything i try to put my mind too. art for example i try and try but. i never get any better i dont know maybe its just me being a whimp and complaining about everything and being all emo. who knows. i feel like i am so alone all the time. like everything i do no one is there to back me up which isent true Josh is there for me. so are my friends. but i still feel so alone. i have been going to sleep earlyer and earlyer so i can just escape. when i dream and sleep thats my drug thats what helps me escape because when im asleep i dont feel anything. no remorse. for anything. except when i am like this.. my dreams consist of me loseing a friend or just pain. which is worse than actually liveing.damn... its driveing me crazy i cant take it i just want to die... i really do. but i cant be that weak. i must go on. well what ever... it think im going to get some sleep. good night. ♥ Endless Horizon · Sat Jul 15, 2006 @ 04:32am · 0 Comments


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