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I just want the world to sufer, for what its done to me. But im too much of a good person. When im at the edge no one can stop me. "It's either now or never." something always tells me but then theres that conscience that nearly or always stop me. Sometimes i feel like i have to battle to get my thoughts straight. I'm not normal, but its Okay. I wanna be able to live freely, without feeling gulty. All i want is for everything to be ok.Why does everything have to be so damn dificult. one word in life has 50 tousand difirent meaning. Love. everyone has to go thru atleast 5 different kind. Why is it always so frustrating to make a decision? cant you just pick something and live with it? Why does it all have to be PERFECT? some times peopl want to have fun and be free.
WHATS SO DIFICULT ABOUT THAT??