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To me school is a ******** fascist torture chamber.
It feels like I'm an alien, or even a leper. A flesh eating disease that will one day devour my entire being.
Maybe that's what it feels like every time I go to school.
That dreadful prison. Where my freedom is completely cast into oblivion, and I'm the one who has to suffer all the time.
Am I insane? Am I crying for help?
Am I depressed?
"Who am I? What am I?" I always ask myself that question everyday when I go for my daily torture. For my daily pain is basically my daily bread. But, this daily bread comes with no salvation. I have no allies. I am all alone in this world. I wander this earth searching for no one, but myself. I am spoiled rotten and confused by the lies I've been fed and I know it's true! Just like it's described in the song You're not alone by "Saosin" one of my many favorite bands. They describe my ways and what I'm searching for. Nothing, absolutely nothing. Maybe one day I'll find it or maybe I won't.
Either way in the end, I will know the truth. About why I felt this way in school and how I escaped it.
Maybe one day I'll realize my agony. Maybe...I'll find the answer to my questions.