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omg ok, so i went on my first date last night. yay for me? i think not. confused
anyway, it was with this guy i used to like, and then i kinda lost feelings for, and he doesn't go to my school. (there's a huge long back story here, but i don't feel like typing it out). and so i kinda got the feeling that he liked me, like, when he would IM me and call me and stuff, but when we went to the movies, it was kinda obvious that he did like me. at the beginning of the movie, he did the classic shift, where he moves, and then puts his arm around you. And i totally wasn't expecting that. not at all. and it felt like dead weight, and it even hurt my neck alittle. and i was really, really tense too, like i was trying not to move so he couldnt' feel my muscles moving and just like, it was weird, you know? and my throat was so dry because i was thirsty, so i kept having to swallow, and then he put his head against mine, which was sweet, i guess, but like, it just felt weird, and he smelled like icky soap. not even like, nice soap, but like, soapy old people soap. just gross. he kept his arm around me for most of the movie, and idk, it was just weird and uncomfortable, and i haven't been able to shake the feeling all day. Its so distracting- i can't even get work done. I almost feel violated, and dirty, because like, here's this guy, who i don't really even like anymore, and he's just like, snuggled up to me for an hour. did i say i feel gross? because i do. i'm just like ' talk2hand go away ' its so frustraiting. and then he said he wants to see me again. I really don't want to. What if he tries to kiss me? I'm definatly not going to give my lip virginity to that creeper.
did i mention all my friends think he's a psycho stalker creeper? because he like, has done some pretty sketchy things in the past. its just so weird. I really don't want to see him, and i don't care if i should keep the connection open with him, just to get a date to the semi in febuary. I'd rather go with some freshman. In fact, i honestly don't care if i ever have a conversation with him again. he's just too weird. and my freinds have no influence over this, i know how i feel, and its not because of them.
sooo, any suggestions? do i cut off communications with him? I really don't feel like telling him that its not gonna work out. I already lied and told him i had a good time. i mean, i was caught up in the moment, so i guess i did in a way have a good time, because it was my first date and everything, but still, now that i'm looking back at it, i'm just disgusted. i know this isn't the same, but i feel as if he took part of my innocence, because he like, invaded my personal space bubble or somthing and took somthing i wasn't ready to give(even though you don't really give away your first....cuddle? date? what is that called, anyway?)...i don't know. i can't verbalize what i'm thinking really, but hopefully you get the idea. ugh. its just eww. eww probably is the best word to describe it.
please comment, and forgive me for my lack of proper punctuation, grammar, spelling, capitalization etc... I'm just too lazy. 3nodding
EDIT: I forgot to mention that I've known him and been friends with him since this summer- we went to the same camp, but he liked my friend. Basically, I already know him well enough to know his personality.
 keya · Sat Nov 25, 2006 @ 09:40pm · 10 Comments |
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Ok, I've officially had it. What ever ounce of sympathy for sluts that I've ever had, however small it was, is now officially gone. I'm talking about the popular kind. Not the unpopular kind. These sluts go down on people to get friends, but all they get is herpes. And then, when you try to be civil and curteous to them, they give you dirty looks and pretend you don't exist.
So, to all you whores out there: I hope you get an STD and no person will ever hook up with you, and you die an old spinster, whose only company is an obscene amount of cats. You deserved to get herpes from that random guy you hooked up with on that cruise, and you deserved the s**t that was said about you when everyone found out that you gave a bunch of guys an STD. What were you expecting? You're the lowest of the low, you filthy sc**bag; I want to make you a shirt that says "I hooked up with all the guys in my school, and all I got was 4 STDs and this t-shirt." I hope that you're too stupid to realize what you're doing, so that way, when you do realize what you doing is ******** up your life- you'll be too broken to be salvaged.
In conclusion, ******** You.
3nodding [/endrant]
keya · Sun Nov 19, 2006 @ 04:53am · 0 Comments |
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I've decided that I'm going to like, totally change my self. You know, be more outgoing, get more freinds, etc...I'm sick of being so introverted.
I've come up with some goals/plans for the future domokun :
Go to the gym to get in shape domokun
Do well in my classes
Join an Acting/Theatre troupe. My ultimate dream is to act in england, haha.
Become Famous. (bit of a stretch. xp )
Get kissed by the end of the school year. Its pathetic that I've never had a BF, let alone, never been kissed.
So yeah. That's what I've been thinking about recently.... 3nodding
keya · Sun Oct 15, 2006 @ 06:39pm · 3 Comments |
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Ok, so yeah.
I really want to go to canada, so i can speak french to some fake frenchies
I want to go to england(omg, new pics of tom felton on www.worldjuniorcarptournament.com make him look HIDEOUS!! but i know he's not THAT ugly.)
I want to infiltrate BHS and like find a guy to hook up with there
I want to see the clique five
My chem teacher looks like spongebob squarepants's dad
I need to move into honors history.
My life, in a nutshell.
keya · Thu Sep 28, 2006 @ 03:26am · 0 Comments |
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Whoo! 3 years on Gaia! rofl
Its Party Time.
keya · Sun Sep 03, 2006 @ 10:24pm · 2 Comments |
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oh my god. Camp was the best 3 weeks of my life, ever. I don't think words can describe how much I love and miss them. Welch 2 forever.
Actually, perhaps these two can: Crying orgy. Because on the last night, everyone was crying, and there were more than 6 people in a room with out their shoes on 3nodding
On news un-related to me:
Tom Felton has an updated website, however, it appears that he isn't the one to update it... if you want to check it out (and get shmecksay pictures of him, because we know that's what everyone wants) go to www.tomfelton.com
keya · Wed Aug 23, 2006 @ 08:30pm · 2 Comments |
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I just figured somthing out- Harry could be a horacrux. When voldemort attacked Harry, he left part of his magic inside of him. Also, instead of dying, Voldemort ended up in sort of a half life. Now, I'm not saying that he couldn't have been kept alive by other horacruxes he could have created, but wouldn't that make sense? He couldn't die unless Harry died...which comes to the prophesey: Neither can live while the other survives. Since Harry is the last horacrux, he'll have to be dead in order for Voldemort to fully and completely die. I bet that at some point, he will realize this, and in an act of selfless bravery and sacrafice, end up killing himself in order to kill Voldemort.
keya · Wed Jul 19, 2006 @ 01:52am · 3 Comments |
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Happy Half Birthday to me.
xp
keya · Wed Jul 12, 2006 @ 09:32pm · 0 Comments |
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Wizard Rock? What the hell?
So I'm listening to a Harry Potter PodCast on the 4th of July(because I'm cool like that) and on the podcast, they bring on a Harry Potter themed band- the Remus Lupins. So I hopped over to their myspace account, and listened to their songs, and they're actually pretty good. In my searches, I also stumbled across other bands like The Moaning Myrtles, Draco and the Malfoys, Harry and the Potters, the Hermione Crookshanks experience, The Whomping Willows, and many others. So yeah. A whole new genre of music thanks to one book series. Wow. You know you've made it when you've achieved cult status, and there are bands that write songs about your books.
keya · Thu Jul 06, 2006 @ 04:08pm · 0 Comments |
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