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My skies dark softly as I look around slowly. My eyes widen as I watch the storm roll in on the heels of the sunlight chasing it all away. I shiver softly as the world grows cold and lifeless. I glance about me, the once bustling city is now empty and deserted as I stand all alone. Tear fall down my eyes slowly and drip to the concrete ground. I scream loudly praying someone will hear me. But no one ever days. in a minutes time I feel as if years has gone by. I hold my knees close as I look cry alone on the streets as the world is soulless and empty. I then see it softly a break in the dark clouds as I open my eyes softly. My ear twitch gently as I hear your soft voice. I stand and see you running towards me and my heart floods my body as it tries to beat from my very chest. I run to you and smile brightly as Happiness and Joy overcome me. I pick you up and twirl you around slowly as I kiss you deeply pulling you close to me deeply my hands massaging your back as I sigh heavily. As the kiss breaks and I open my eyes. The day is bright and warm and full of life as we are surrounded by family and friends. I look at you softly and realize that no matter how lonely and cold I feel, it will always be you to brighten my days and warm my thoughts and fill my life with happiness and joy.

It starts as butterflies in my stomach.
When your near your palms sweat.
I am Constantly thinking of you.
My heart stops as our eyes meet in a glance.
Nothing else matters in the world.
Except you, because you are my everything!
Everyone else seems to vanish when we are together.
Only your touch can engulf my entire being in an inferno.
Words are useless between us,
Cause we already know what the each other needs.
When It comes to how much I love you,
Nothing in this universe can help explain it.
I sometimes wonder if love says it enough.
When you are away I sit and wait your return.
I never need for anyone to announce Your arrival.
Your presence is so strong that I can feel when you arrive.
Like a psychic bond I share so much with you.
Not even my heart is safe from you.
This is only the beginning of love.
The true definition of love is this:
"To give someone the power to shatter your soul,
But trusting that they never ever do so."
That is True Love all in it's own.
Logan I have already given you the power to destroy me.
Because I feel so wonderful when we are together.
I believe that you are my True Love!!!

Beauty is everywhere in the world of men. However there is a select few who stick out more than others. One in particular only appears beneath a small cherry blossom tree. Her long jet black hair glistens brightly as the soft pink blossoms play in her hair. Eyes as violet as midsummer's night sky. Her soft pale flesh reminded me of porcelain and silk.
As I watched her sit beneath the tree I felt emotions which I have never before experienced. Slowly I withdrew from the shadows so I could confront her. Once she became aware of my presence there a small beast arose from the earth. It hissed threateningly at me as I stepped closer to her. Taking The hint I sat down where I stood.
The beast done the same as I did only its dark eyes glared menacingly at me. As she sat and played the small flute that seemed to glow in the dim lighting I felt a part of myself calm. The more she played the deeper I fell Into her trance. The deeper I fell however the more different I felt.
As the night grew old I felt myself enter a state of evolution. First my hair fell from my body as my flesh melted from my being. Shiny silver fur blanketed my body as I shrank in size. My hands were slowly replaced with paws as was my feet. A tail shot from me as I felt myself purring silently inside my throat. two perky ears appeared atop my head as my blue eyes was replaced with deep black eyes. As my body turned into that of a quadruped my transformation was completed.
As the soft rays of sunlight tore through the dusk's fading curtain, I watched as the beast vanished. My new master slowly faded away as well. I however got the joy of seeing another sunrise before I joined my new family.

Disappear. Since the day you left my side its been my only wish. My angelic power and auras are dimming and dying. Life as I've known it has changed. Its lost all its spark and all meaning to me. My living in this realm is useless. All I have anymore is pain and horrid agony. Love no longer exists in my existence and all I wish for is your return or death. In my weakened state I could be killed easily and now I couldn't care. As a matter of fact, I am contemplating taking my life and saving others their time. If only I could take my blades of demonic power into my hands. The blades at this moment would steal away my angelic being leaving me mortal and dying of all my previous wounds. I would then plunge them into my being watching as my crimson life force drains from my body to pool in the floor before me. My skin would grow cold and grey as all the heat and color vanishes from me. My ice blue eyes would grow blank and lifeless as my jet black hair falls from me to the earthen floors below. My angelic armor would burn itself from me as my skin dries out. A soft breeze would caress my corpse and wisps away my physical body and my soul. I would want you to know I'd always love you so I'd leave my blades in your possession and this would be how I would die.

She was gone. His entire world had left over night while he was resting. Upon his awakening he discovered that her presence had been stolen from him. There was nothing left to even prove that she was once there with him. He clothes was gone from all the dressers. Her make-ups and other feminine tools were missing. Even her scent was gone from the sheets.
On the kitchen table lay a note that used only one sentence, "I'm sorry". His heart fell as he stood there reading it over and over again. He just didn't understand why it was this happened to him. He gave her everything she ever asked for and more. But now it seemed that not even that was enough to keep her by his side.
The more he thought about it the deeper he fell into depression. He missed her deeply. His body ached for her to come back to him. His heart bled for her to return. Days went by quickly as he just sat in the kitchen floor looking at the piece of paper. He had unplugged his phones and threw his cell phones away. He had disconnected himself from the world completely.
Then finally he realized he could no longer live without her. Thats when he decided he was going to commit suicide. His life meant nothing without her in it and she was all he could ever think of . The longer he dwelt upon the subject the better it started to sound. It didn't take long for him to purchase the 357 magnum six shot from the local pawn shop. When they had inquired on what it was for he told them he was going rabbit hunting with some buddies.
Once home he started setting everything up. He had positioned a chair beside her side of the bed and sat down in it. He had placed a piece of paper in his lap as he loaded the gun. The sound of the metal casing sliding into its chamber sent chills down his spine. The click it made when he pushed the chamber into the gun brought a sliver of happiness to him. He gave the chamber one quick spin and reveled in the clicking noise it made as the bullet sped through the hammer repeatedly. He would no longer need to live without her.
As he brought the barrel up and into his mouth memories flashed through his mind. The years that they had spent together visited him once more. He drew in a quick breath as he pulled the metallic trigger and the hammer dropped into the butt of the shell casing. Sparks and force ignited the powder in the shell as the bullet raced from the barrel. As it tunneled through his skull the door to the apartment flew upon revealing his lover. She was the last thing he had seen as the bullet tore through his brain and skull. It had bathed the wall behind him in a meaty crimson paint that told the story of a hurt lover.
She ran quickly to his side hoping, praying that it hadn't killed him. But sadly it had and all that was left was the piece of blood stained paper. She picked it up and held it in her hands for a minute. She slowly opened it up and read his last words repeatedly. "I'm sorry, but I still love you!"

I hear them all click into place as i fill this clip with 9mm hollow points. The clicking rings in my head as I force the clip into the Beretta. I pull the hammer back placing a round into the chamber and release locking it in place.Without another thought in my head I place the barrel up to my skull and squeeze the trigger. I hear the click and then the hammer slaps the casing as the shell is fired. The hollowed out metal slug pierces my skulls and slides through my brain. I die almost instantly as a beautiful painting of crimson brain matter blankets the wall behind me. When the police arrive they find my note and all it says is "I'm sorry". My skull lays empty as the back of it is open and exposing where my brain was once housed inside. I ended my life in an act of pure love and now I rot in hell for eternity. ******** least the worst pain of all is neutralized and replaced with another. My heart is finally dead and all it took was just one small Hollow point case.

Everyone says snow is beautiful and should be admired.
Well I knew snow once and it is a cold and harsh mistress.
At first it seems that it will lay comfort upon you.
But then as it touches your hand it melts away quickly.

I used to ask myself "Is there something wrong with me?"
It took a many long sleepless nights that I learned the truth.
Even though in my heart I wanted snow to myself I could never have her.
She belongs to no one and stays with no one.

She is a being of true pain and agony.
Never can she be comforted.
For she will get burned and melt.
She will come and go with the seasons, looking for love.

But that is her path and she must walk it alone.
May she find what we will all find in life. True Love.

[Well yet again I have returned to the land of Gaia. I doubt that any of my old friends are still here but if you guys are the shoot me some love. I am sorry I was away for so long life just got really hectic. But you guys can all thank Logan Paulik for bringing me back. She is the greatest in the world and I honestly believe that I am falling for her. Well I'm a jet. See you guys around.

Anyways after my awaited return to the cyber world which I so dearly love because of all my friends. I have returned to you all finally. Anyways I just got my new laptop the other day and it is wicked awesome. Its much faster than my old one and alot sleeker as well. Its awesome all the way around set up for gaming like I wanted and for burning my movies and music which I am constantly downloading. Anyways as soon as I get vista off here I'm a have to hook up with some of you and play HALO right away. But until then know this I will grind you into dust as soon as I get halo on this laptop.