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You know I hate it what people sugar coat or derail from telling the truth. It really does hurt in the end when you really find out what is going on. That is exactly what happened to me today. I don't know if I should be sad, mad or even crying to tell you the truth. All I know is that it hurts, the truth bloody hurts especially when you don't see it coming. I just wished that, that one person was honest with me from the beginning, that way I wouldn't really be in this mess in the first place. Am I right or what? What's worst is that this person decides to tell me this a day before we go out. Like I really want to see you after the fact that you lied to me about that one major detail. You knew how I felt and yet you used me and played with my emotions. That's just not right?, at least I think it isn't.......I just cried after writing this. D: That's a first I've never cried over someone before not unless they are a relative that died or something. He must feel real special now. Of course he won't know that I was crying but if he did, I bet he wouldn't even care. What really takes the cake is that he'll expect that me and him will be just as we use to and go on as if nothing has happened. I don't think I could do that because if I were to see it with my own eyes I probably break down into tears right then and there.