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Gahhhh….stupid human. I really have issues with cool people that think they’re trash. Nick is a great guy, but he thinks that he’s garbage and that everyone is just putting up with him wishing he’d leave them alone. It’s dumb. And now he’s using me as a justification of his self loathing feelings. I hate that.

Eric’s going away party is tonight. God, I’m terrified. I know he’ll only be gone a year but I’m so scared that he won’t be the same man that left. For all I know this could be the last time I ever see ‘My Eric’. Maybe I’m just worrying for nothing but the thought of someone shooting at him, or anything bad happening to him….I cried for quite a while last night. He needs to come home safe. I don’t know what I’ll do if he doesn’t.

But on a brighter note, Homer 3 (on of my pigeons) actually got 100% today! All time personal best!

Here I am starting another web journal. Lets hope the new space will initiate my recent slack in posting. I do have an LJ so those of you can go see my posts from last year if you really feel the need but I will warn you there is a lot of dirty crap and emotional baggage there. In all honesty from this point on most of the posts it do here will be also posted over there so if you keep up with one you’ll be all-good. In case any of my Gaia friends happen upon this, I would like to post an apology now. I am truly sorry to everyone for my recent absence. This year though I am able to handle my rigorous schedule, I am allowed very little free time and what I get is usually spent mimicking my favorite vegetable of the day or in a Sims induced coma. However, I am still alive and I do still care about you all. I’m sorry to say that this lack in time for correspondence is not just limited to those who our relationship is just over the net. Similar amounts of distress and neglect are being felt by even those that live down the hall from me and even more so, those who live anything more than 10 miles from my location. So I am truly sorry to everyone. But as always, I have to run. There are still many things I need to do tonight and I have yet to start any of them. Wish me well.