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Hey J,
Ohhh man, last night was totally the best! It made my whole day!!! My long time friend, Sophie, called me last night! AHHH! I gave her my phone # when I sent her an email.... and last night we talked for nearly 2 hours!!! Actually, considering this is someone I've been extremely close to ever since we were 9 yrs old, I didn't think it was long enough! It felt like we were only talking for a half hour! lol. As always, it's so nice to hear from her. We had such a great time talking, gosh, I know I'll NEVER forget it. And when I see her again, I know I'll never forget it either! Earlier, I was thinking if she really changed, well not dramatically changed, but you know, of course, she'd be much taller. Wait, she was always really tall! I remember last time we saw each other, she towered over me like a building! lol. There's so much to say, we said so many things. I remembered saying, "Man, if only we could record this entire conversation!" hahaha. I wish! But I don't think there would be too much room in here if I was to write down every single word. It was funny when I read her the e-mail that Chelle sent us last week, and the portion she wrote especially for me. Of course, she loved it!! I knew she would smile .
Ahhh, 2 kindred spirits reunited again. We call each other as "soul sisters". Hehehe. And I really think we are! In fact, I BELIEVE we are. You can't really define those kinds of relationships you have with certain people. How you just click, it's nuts. lol. Actually, you can't define it, and I'm soooo glad I have her as my friend and how important our friendship means to me. *tear* smile After being on the phone with her for hours, at that point it didn't even seem like we were apart for so long. Even she realized that, that we just talked as if we've always been talking everyday, and not a lot happened within the span of 2 years.
I miss my Sophie, I can't wait to see her again! By the way her birthday is TODAY!!! Well, judging from the time, it was YESTERDAY! lol. Happy 18th Birthday SOPHIE!!!! Luv ya! heart 3nodding smile razz 4laugh
 kaibigan909 · Sat Jan 07, 2006 @ 03:28am · 0 Comments |
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*~*~HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!~*~* |
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Hey J,
It's finally the New Year!!! Well last night was New Year's Eve, and today is New Year's Day. It sounds simple when typed, but for me it is easy to confuse those two which one's which, and every year I have a hard time getting it straight. Ok, I got it now. lol. So anyways, WOW, throughout the whole thing all I've been thinking was, where has the time gone?? Now it's only 16 months until Chelle comes back! But I know I shouldn't really be counting down, cuz I'm sure she's enjoying it in the Philippines. I wouldn't want 2 spoil her fun, altho it's too bad they're not allowed to... you know, celebrate NYE and look at all the fireworks... well, it's more like they CAN'T, cuz my mom said that missionaries have strict time schedules, so while the majority of the world is waiting until midnight strikes, they should already be asleep- the latest they can stay up is 10:00pm, and later than that wouldn't be such a good idea- since they have to wake up very early in the morning, and would need all the energy they can get to do their work during the day. But gosh, if it were me, I would find it impossible to sleep through the exploding fireworks! And to miss out on all the fun and excitement? Don't think so! lol smile
A part of me misses her a little bit, but it's getting much better. I know that as long as we're all in the same planet, and in tact, then everything will work itself out eventually. How it's getting better is to keep on praying that Chelle is doing alright, and wherever she goes she will always be protected and the Spirit will guide her, as well as her companion. I haven't visited the Philippines in a very long time now, last time was back in 1998 when we travelled to Cebu for summer vacation. But that's not remotely close to where Chelle is serving, which is in Manila (there was a specific location in Manila, since it's a city, but I keep forgetting the name confused ), and as a child, I can still remember how it was back then, and I'm sure it still relatively the same today. Manila's not the most safest, nor cleanest city over there... but then again, practically all of the areas in the Phil. aren't. It's a pretty filthy country, with a population of approx. 75 M, give or take. Yeah, so we always remember to pray for her safety, that she's got everything she needs, and, God forbid if anything were to happen to her.... cry I want her to come home next year all in one piece, that's all I ask! heart
I just got back from church, so I still have 2 eat lunch. Hope you have a FUN-tastic Year 2006!!! mwah 4laugh
kaibigan909 · Sun Jan 01, 2006 @ 08:04pm · 0 Comments |
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One more thing b4 hitting the sack... |
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Hey J. I just got back with my family, we went see a musical/play thing at the Foothills stake centre, called "Messiah" by Handel. Pretty long drive, but it was well worth the trip. It was really.... enchanting. Magical. In some ways, theatrical. Judging from the way they sounded, it must have taken A LOT of rehearsals and coming in for practices, and all that really fun stuff. Hehe, actually, I don't think it would be so bad, that might even be fun. Besides, I do enjoy singing, and the kind of music they sang, which was kind of classical opera, if you like listening to that, is pretty bearable. I'd definitely be one of the sopranos, cuz that's the only thing I KNOW I won't mess up on. lol. There was quite a number of people involved in the choir, some of them which we knew. Too bad I only got to congratulate a couple of them when it was over and the choir started walking off the stage and to the back of the room, while greeting people along the way. Oh wellies. Hehe, that's my word now. I"m not even sure if it is an actual word, but it's my word for tonight.
Ok, I gotta get some shut eye. Need to get up for seminary tomorrow. *sigh*... I'm okay. I have to start getting into the habit of waking up at 6:30 am....*sigh*. Tag u back l8ers!! heart
kaibigan909 · Mon Nov 21, 2005 @ 05:09am · 0 Comments |
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Great weekend (but one less person not here :( ) |
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Hey J,
This weekend was awesome! My volunteer work yesterday and Friday was the best, for this time the rec staff kept me busy and gave me lots of things to do. During Friday, Wendy (my employer) needed my help to put up tables for a fundraiser for the auxiliary by selling all sorts of items that people donated to Mayfair. Things like clothes, yarn, toys, books, puzzles, xmas ornaments, perfume/makeup, and we even had a kitchenware section, as well as an entire table with jewelry. Corrine (remember her? She's one of the residents there) and I spent nearly half an hour, talking and looking at the jewelry and choosing which ones we liked. We even tried a couple of necklaces and rings on that at one point we started looking for a mirror to see how we looked! It was great fun, but soon it made me think about my own grandmother... I wondered that if I was back home, I could still be able to do these things with her like I did with Corrine. And for a moment Corrine reminded me so much of her; so sweet and wonderful and just knows how to have fun. I'm sure I'd have as much fun spending time with my grandmother as I did with Corrine. When I was really young, I remember just being able to talk with her about anything. I recall a time when one really hot day she and I were both watching TV, while my other cousins played with each other. Just sitting on the couch, we sometimes took turns fanning each other b/c in the Philippines, any day feels like 100 degrees & even indoors you'll be cooking! I dunno, but just thinking about that... it sounds pretty ordinary I know, but it's the memories I still have that I had with her. And that's what matters most. And with that thought in mind, I just can't help but say, I REALLY miss my grandmother!!! cry And my grandfather too smile
I'm really glad that I was able to help out, but by then there were so many donations that there weren't enough tables to set them all out! It was sort of like a gigantic garage sale, except indoors! 3nodding
So that was basically it for Friday. Yesterday, when I came in at around 1:15 pm, I did remember seeing as I walked into the rec room, that everything looked a lot more... packed. Not a lot of people were there yet, but there was more stuff set out than there was friday! I assumed more donations came in that morning. Aw, some people are so generous. And smart too- give away things they don't want anymore instead of throwing them away! Doesn't that seem like a much better idea!
Matt was there, just as I expected him there. While he was in charge of cashier/collecting money, I went to look for Wendy and the others. It turns out, they were in the dining room, setting up tables again, only this time we had to prepare the Christmas tea party for the residents. The whole place looked pretty fancy and formal, I admit. I could tell this was something very special, cuz not only did people had to pay to get inside (kind of like a fancy restaurant), but I wasn't alone who volunteered to help and act as servers and ushers. After I got to meet the other volunteers, my job was to stand by the doorway, assigning people to their tables. Since other people were in wheelchairs, I had to make sure that they got a table where they can still use their own chairs, so that it would be more comfortable for them, Wendy told me.
kaibigan909 · Mon Nov 21, 2005 @ 12:58am · 0 Comments |
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Hey J,
As I was walking home from school today, I was thinking about the lesson that we discussed during seminary class. It was on pride, and that out of all sins we can possibly commit, the prophets tell us that pride is the most DESTRUCTIVE and most DANGEROUS sin of all. Not to mention it is also the most common type of sin. And that reminded me of... have you heard of the Seven Deadly Sins? I wasn't quite sure what those "sins" were about, just that some religions believe in it. So I decided to look it up on Google, and sure enough, one of the sins included pride. In fact, it's the first sin on the list that must be watched out. Here's a brief description of their take on pride:
"Pride: excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity. The virtue against pride is humility. Seeing ourselves as we are and not comparing ourselves to others is humility. Pride and vanity are competitive. If someone else's pride really bothers you, you have a lot of pride."
--http://deadlysins.com
Wow. Talk about telling it like it is. And in the scriptures it does warn us about being prideful, or caring about other people's pride which also causes pride in ourselves. I know, it's a disgusting thing, that pride. I now understand how important it is that we learn about this topic, and how easily it can be turned on because it happens to each and every one of us. We all have pride in ourselves; it is what makes us human. Now, there is a GOOD kind pride and a BAD one too. I've learned that the good pride is, for instance, when you say, "Oh, I'm so proud of you!" Technically, that is not pride, but rather being happy for someone who has done a good job or accomplished something big. It's the type of pride where you are only focusing on ONE person, & you aren't comparing them to how well others have done. That quickly switches on the bad pride (so you gotta be careful not to mix those two up) where you are proud of someone, but that they "won", so to speak, and the other person didn't! Basically, when one begins to think that he/she is "better" than other people that's the mentality that REALLY leads to trouble! And worse, it's the kind of mentality that the adversary wants so much to implement on people. It is so easy to become lured into pride, because there are certain events in our life that are constantly triggering it. Most people don't even realize that they do carry some measure of pride in themselves, and this becomes dangerous because this allows the devil to tempt us into thinking that everything is alright, that pride is NOT a sin. He uses people that they may turn against each other, even to those they love. But thankfully, there is a way to avoid being prideful. By practicing becoming humble, or HUMILITY, we all can be able to relinquish that self-destructive impulse inside us that is pride. When I think about it more, pride is "supposed" to be there so that we can learn to escape from it and stop it from becoming who we are, and hopefully we will strive for humility in our lives. To soften our hearts and appreciate ourselves for the unique and wonderful people that we are, so there's absolutely no need for comparison. By doing that, we no longer have to go through unnecessary pain and guilt, and not fall for the trappings of the wicked. Remember, we are all children of God, which means we have the POWER(or free agency) to choose humility and love and respect for our fellow men! smile
kaibigan909 · Wed Nov 09, 2005 @ 12:30am · 0 Comments |
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Hey J,
Hope ur enjoying ur weekend! I know I have.... yesterday (and Friday) I did my volunteering at Mayfair Centre. Even though this week I've only done about 4 hours in total, those hours really mattered. I'm sure the people there really appreciated another hand to help them with preparing activities for the elderly. And I was more than happy to do it. I've only been volunteering there for about, 3 weeks, ever since mid-October, and I think I'm starting to get used to the environment. Most of the time it's pretty quiet, even though I notice, obviously, there's always nurses and other staff running around trying to get their work done. When you go in, you can spot several different hallways, and there's a lot of rooms on each side, where the residents have their own bed & bathroom. There are "main" rooms where the elderly can sit and relax, or watch TV, read, or do whatever they want. What I found really awesome was the backyard. Where I go, which is in the recreation room, there's a huge window and when you look outside, there's a backyard- but it looks more like a tiny park cuz the way they made it, like the smooth pathways, the patio, and the freshly-cut grass (I think there's also a water fountain?), it just appears so peaceful and serene and bright, the sun always seems to be shining, even though it's actually pretty cloudy on some days. It's the perfect place for the folks if they love being outside with the fresh air. In summertime, I'm sure it's just beautiful, but seeing as it's already winter season, I think people would just settle staying indoors than trying to brave the cold.
The more time I spend there, the more people are starting to remember me. I understand now that some folks have reached their time when they can no longer remember things, things that happened yesterday, or even what they ate for breakfast! I met a sweet old lady, her name is Corrine (she hates it when people spell her name wrong lol) and we talked for awhile, about all kinds of things. She told me she knows someone who's birthday is coming up, and then asked what month we're in. When I said, "November", she seemed very surprised- she thought it was April! At that point I felt sympathy for her, I felt sorry that she couldn't remember even the simplest things. There's no way I could've said that I knew how she felt, but I suppose if I were stuck inside 24/7 where I'm constantly being supervised by nurses and I can't go anywhere where I want to, I'd also feel like I'm losing track of time, and have very little sense of what's happening on the "outside" world.
For the most part, everyone there are so nice and friendly, but since it's such a helping environment, it's also important to keep in mind that I was there to offer service and comfort/relief to the elderly who need the most attention, and to make their lives (or for some, the days they still have left) as comfortable as possible. It is everyone's responsibility to look out for one another. It just feels so safe when I'm there. So yeah, that's all for me today. Sorry I haven't written here in awhile. But don't worry, I'll tell you more about what else is up! Until then, byezzz heart .
kaibigan909 · Sun Nov 06, 2005 @ 11:55pm · 0 Comments |
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Hey J,
Oh, wow, I gotta tell you something. Last night, I had the freakiest dream to end all freaky dreams. Well, I'm not too sure about that, but personally, for me, it was! It just didn't make any sense. Like most dreams, it seemed so realistic, as if it actually happened, or worse... it might yet to happen. But that's ridiculous! I don't know why it's bothering me so much, besides it's not true. No matter how real it may have been, it was just a dream. Just that it had a very similar affect to having a nightmare- it had most of the basic components to it. It shook me to the very core. Which is why I'm saying this dream was the freakiest that I've ever had, because it's so ridiculous in every way imaginable! The worst part wasn't exactly the way the dream manifested itself, but more of how it made me feel throughout the whole thing. I remember feeling scared, confused, cold....and that horrible mixture of pure sadness, and LONELINESS, like I've never felt before even in the waking, conscious level. The fact that when I finally understood what my dream was about, close to the end, I can only remember the feeling of being so lonely... and I mean REALLY lonely, as if there is no one else to turn to anymore.... and that's how it became "scary". And somewhat psychologically disurbing. Except no scary images, no illusions, nothing.... but it's scary to feel like you're heart is being torn apart, like it can't take so much pain and hurt, that it suddenly crumbles to pieces. Just like that. Think of it as "self-destructing". Now, imagine that there isn't a thing you can do about it. Your whole life was slooowly, silently, crashing down in slow motion... all right in front of your eyes. All because of one thing, or in this case, one person, and you're certain that you've lost them forever. And all of those emotions I've experienced in one dream. I am surprised I woke up this morning with a dry eye.
kaibigan909 · Tue Oct 25, 2005 @ 08:58pm · 0 Comments |
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Dear J,
Happy Thanksgiving Day!!!! Another reason to celebrate is that school's out!!! WOOPIEE! That's definitely something I'm grateful for today blaugh And among others. What I'm about to say is going to sound cliched, I know... too bad, I'm saying it anyway. lol I'm grateful for my FAMILY, and I'm so grateful to have good FRIENDS!!!! If you guys are reading this:you know who you ARE! wink But the thing is, I know that I should be thankful for all the things I have, and to always remember that everyday. Everything that I've ever owned comes from - who else?- the Lord, and for that, I know that I must try not to take the special things in my life for granted. I admit, sometimes it's easy to forget, but I think that is the purpose of why this sometimes underestimated holiday is made. So every year we will always remember! And besides, it's only for ONE DAY, so having said that, I've never really understood what other people are whining about when everyone at the dinner table goes around sharing what they're grateful for. It's important ok! I'm grateful for having a roof over my head, that I'm in optimum health and haven't gotten some life-threatening disease or anyone else I know, basically just grateful to be ALIVE! I'm also very, very grateful to have the Lord in my life, and with that knowledge, I want to become a better person because of Him. I'm not perfect, and I'm glad or that would be just CREEPY, to be honest with you. But you know what, that doesn't matter to Him as much, instead what matters is if we continue to do what is right, and to serve our fellow brothers and sisters in the world.
Anyway, I have to finish my social homework. Yeah, that's the only one minor problem about today. xd Hope your enjoying your Thanksgiving!
kaibigan909 · Mon Oct 10, 2005 @ 09:27pm · 0 Comments |
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Sunday reading (Getting Back on Track) |
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Hey J,
Today I read 6 pages of the B of M. And yet, I can't help but feel like I'm way behind on what the prophet expects everyone to be at right now! He mentioned that sometime around October, that people should be aiming for reading in the section of Alma... and I'm still finishing 2 Nephi!! Ok, so maybe I am a little bit behind. But, rest assured, I WILL keep on reading, even if it takes me the end of the year. In which, that is the standard goal that is to be encouraged for everyone 2 do... and that is to be getting close to completing the entire Book of Mormon! sweatdrop I'm definitely going 2 need some catching up 2 do, no doubt about that. As long as the Lord knows that I am just doing the best I can and do what needs to be done everyday, then I think I'll be okay. Though I REALLY REALLY do need to be more aware of the things I normally do and how much time I spend on things that I have to cut down on.... for example, it's a good idea that I don't get too carried away with reading LOTR,(the first one, and then after that, I'm considering about reading Two Towers and ROTK) so I can get started on my other, bigger priorities. But I must confess, it is such a fascinating read! Plus, LOTR is something I feel like I have to make up for for not having read a decent novel straight through to completion within the past couple of months. I think of it as my own "personal goal" I've created to do for myself this year. And well... I regret it, I haven't followed through w/ the plan. *sigh*. I gotta remember to do these things!!!! And exercise how to use my time wisely. Things will change. And I will see to it that it happens exclaim
kaibigan909 · Mon Oct 10, 2005 @ 12:19am · 0 Comments |
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