I really don't expect anyone to read this.
Really, why would anyone view a random journal? haha
But I just.. I just wanted to type something out that happened a couple of days ago.
My mom, brother, and I ordered Chinese food to go.
The waitress told us it would be fifteen minutes before our food would be ready.
My mom then said we should go walking around.
Derek, my brother and I like to make jokes.
Recently, we've gotten into these two really funny Youtube videos.
One was, "Nigel goes to the store"
It's weird why I like it so much, but it's very humorous.
Another video, was called "WOOL".
It's a video from someone playing Minecraft.
Honestly, I don't really play it, but for some reason, I enjoy watching it.
The video is not at all serious, and you have to have the weirdest sense of humor to find it funny. I can imagine other people watching it and cringing, asking themselves why anyone would ever find it funny. I don't know.
So my mom walked behind us as Derek recited out favorite lines from both videos. We were laughing a ton, making weird hand gestures while just walking.
While walking past another Chinese bakery, we passed by this young Chinese couple. The woman was looking at us, and I could feel the way she was looking at us. She began to speak to the man in Chinese, and in between the gibbers of Chinese, I heard her say ABC. She said it right while looking at us.
Both Derek and I don't speak Chinese, although we should be. Chinese people, if you don't speak Chinese fluently, then you'll be shunned for being turned into an American. For us, it's even worse, we don't speak it at all. We don't even understand it. We were rock bottom.
Although I didn't understand the Chinese she spoke, I understood what the woman was saying.
She had pointed out that my brother and I were ABCs.
American Born Chinese.
I'm not sure if she said something even worse accompanying her comment, but I didn't say anything to her.
Maybe it was because we had already passed by her.
Maybe it was because I had nothing to say to her.
Or maybe it was because I knew it was true.
We were ABCs. There was no doubt. Both Derek and I were born here. We're both first generation Americans, as both my dad and my mom were born out of the country. But somehow, I felt like the term wasn't just about how we were born here. I felt like, .. like it meant how much America had influenced us.
Honestly, I don't mind.
Even though it's been a while since this has happened..
I have to wonder.
Why do I still have this weird feeling inside?
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