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Time seems to go so slow, yet it goes by so fast. I am so confused as to where my live is going. My doctor tells me I have 2 months left to live, and I dont know if I should believe that or not. I dont know where my live is going anymore. I feel like I'm caught in the shadows of my past and that everything is going to hell. Who am I? What am I? Am I even human? I just....I'm to the point where I don't know anymore. I need to figure things out but I have noone to talk to. I am so scared. I'm not ready to die. I dont want to die yet. I need to keep living. I need to keep living for my niece and my mate...but what if they're not enough....what if, deep down, I have nothing to live for?