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I don't like walls. They block you and keep you from reaching where you have to go. They're annoying and for me, always causing trouble. I'm speaking figuratively of course. Right now, I'm in a position where there's someone in my way. My future is in their hands and I can't do anything to fix it. People say ignore, go around, or just wait and everything will be okay. I can't ignore a situation like this. Its about school and my education. There's no way around it because of who the person is and how the government works. As for waiting, time is running out. Everything seems like its about to end badly for me and giving up has been going through my mind. I always tell people to stay positive and I try and be that happy person that reminds people when things are bad they will get better. But now, I need someone like that for me. I'm not a big crier but honestly these last 2 months has been horrible and I want to disappear just so I can cry alone.

But as the happy silly goody two shoe positive person I am, I don't give up even when I feel like that's my only option. I can't give up. I look at a better outcome and try and get there. Walls can be knocked down.