Well i haven't been on gaia for 3 years now I miss it a lot and also my friend who was also my lover for awhile. Now let see I will start in the year 2009 since that was the last year I was here. Well that was the year I finally got a job which was unfortunately at KFC and then I got my drivers permit, which i really didn't need but my dad got me a car because I almost got hit by a 3x in one day and my father was afraid I would get hit one day. It was May 5 2009 when I got i was 19 and should of been in the street with all the other Hispanics celebrating 5 De Mayo but I also had that job interview at KFC. Well my dad during that time was going in and out of the hospital and was very ill. On June 25, 2009 he got a heart attack and the hospital call me and said I needed to get there right away so I did and they told me they put him in a coma and his heart has continually been stopping and that I will have to make a decision of them keep trying or to just stop and let him die. This is when all the memories of my dad are flashing by in my head, my dad told me several times that he was in pain and was miserable and that he wish God took him away and he told me how he wanted the house run and how me wanted his funeral. When each time he gave me this talk I always told no no dad you have to stay alive until I finish college, get marry, have kids, and buy you that big house you always wanted, he would just laugh and say okay i will try. But as I look at him in that bed in soo much pain and it was even killing me and the chance that if he did come back that part of his brain won't be functionally properly just killed me. I cried to the doctors to just stop and let him rest at that time I didn't know if I was really making the right decision, and I knew that this is what my dad wanted, but I didn't, I didn't want to lose him, he was the only parent in my life after my mother left us for another man, he raised me and care for me on his own, and I was starting to do that for him but that was all taken away. He was buried on July 3 and was buried in the same grave as his mother just as he wanted. I still think of him and miss him soo much but I know he is watching over me. Well I will continue another day what happen after that.
 Sookie_Dew · Tue Mar 20, 2012 @ 06:34am · 0 Comments |
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