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What an interesting week o__o Heh on Monday Andrew had Moose and mego with him to a church baseball game which ended up becoming a trip to downtown with me paying for their dinner at Canton Restaurant. By time we got back with our food (we ordered to go) the game was over and it was time for us to leave. We ended up going back around Andrew's place....even though it was more like right outside Ryan's house that we ate our food o_0. Then Ryan came out (he apparently had something to tell me) we asked for some plates then he got some plates and joined us (the more the merrier). After that the cops came to his house. We thought they were finally going to take Ryan's mom away. N'aw she got off >< By the end of the night it ended up being Ryan, Andrew, Moose, Sam, Jack, and me hanging out o_o all brought together by food pretty much. Never underestimate the power of food! xd
Well that was Monday o_o
Tuesday, Brooke came over for popcicles and that ended up becoming a mini-sleepover.
Wednesday, I was kinda sorta awakened my dear old Andrew -__- He asked me to go over to the high school and be there by 12:30 ....it was almost 12 when he called >< jerk. Anyway...that day started off with Andrew, Sam, Ryan and me. We went off to lunch at Family Kitchen (good food) then were joined by Nichole and Terry after we finished eating. Then we got ice cream and were joined by Greg and Zach. its amazing how when I hang out with Andrew, Ryan, and Sam our company ends up getting bigger o__o
Then there's today. I cant believe i'm actually making brownies for them -_- I woke up at about 7-ish just to start a batch of brownies. I ended up falling asleep on the kitchen floor neutral I don't know how that happened it just did. And I woke up again at 8:30-ish all this for a little get together at Ryans thats supposed to start at 11 >< I'm gonna be late ^^;
Well i'm kinda screwed. We have rehearsals tomorrow and we're supposed to have all ourr lines memorized...I wasn't able to find my script after our last rehearsal...I still cant find it ...>< me=dead Everybody come to my funeral please XP
Well i've gotta go finish the stupid brownies. So bye.
 scorn_love · Thu Sep 01, 2005 @ 06:44pm · 2 Comments |
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Oi this has been one crappy summer for me and some of my friends I believe, we need school to get our insanity levels up again crying . But I got to go to Santa Cruz with one of my friends today for her birthday and saw Collin and Marissa again (I missed you two!!!) then met Austin...my friend's unrelated "twin", and Jason. They're both pretty cool. Awesome at DDR/In The Groove too.
Well that was my short journal entry for the day. I'm going to try and update more often sweatdrop yay for me.
Just because i'm a loser i'm going to post lyrics again. blaugh
Merely the sound of your voice
Made me believe that you were her
Just like the river disturbs
... my inner peace
Once I believed I could find
Just a trace of her beloved soul
Once I believed she was all
Then she smothered my beliefs
One cold winter's night
I may follow her voice to the river
Leave me for now and forever
Leave while you can
Somewhere in time
I will find you and haunt you again
Like the wind sweeps the earth
Somewhere in time
When no virtues are left to defend
You've fallen deep
I was a liar in every debate
I rule the forces that fuelled your hate
When the cold in my heart leaves
It comes to an end
And quietly I'll go to sleep
How could that first time recur
When memories linger on and on
What made me think you were her
Helena is dead to all
Nothing can bring her to life
Don't pretend that I'll be loving you
Once I believed she was gone
But I'm corrupted from within
Leave me for now and forever
Leave while you can
Somewhere in time
I will find you and haunt you again
Like the wind sweeps the earth
Somewhere in time
When no virtues are left to defend
You've fallen deep
I was a liar in every debate
I rule the forces that fuelled your hate
When the cold in my heart leaves
It comes to an end
And quietly I'll go to sleep
[Ariel]
Follow me into the light
Leave me tonight
I've gone too far to begin all anew
With someone like you
[Marguerite]
Like ice on a lake of tears
I'll take you through
Life fades in anew
With someone like you
The Haunting (Somewhere In Time)
by: Kamelot
So ya thats it for now.....bye .__.
scorn_love · Mon Aug 29, 2005 @ 07:15am · 0 Comments |
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ego boosters are fun~~~
What if:
[1] I committed suicide:
[2] I said I liked you:
[3] I kissed you:
[4] I lived next door to you:
[5] I started smoking:
[6] I stole something:
[7] I was hospitalized:
[8] I ran away from home:
[9] I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What do you think about my:
[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:
Other:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you ******** me?
[13] Would you marry me?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are we close?
[33] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
scorn_love · Sat Jun 11, 2005 @ 09:58pm · 6 Comments |
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<center>Twisted every way,
what answer can I give?
Am I to risk my life,
to win the chance to live?
Can I betray the man
who once inspired my voice?
Do I become his prey?
Do I have any choice?
He kills without a thought,
he murders all that's good . . .
I know I can't refuse
and yet, I wish I could . . .
Oh God - if I agree,
what horrors wait for me
in this, the Phantom's opera . . .?
scorn_love · Thu May 12, 2005 @ 09:44pm · 1 Comments |
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Micheal Jackson Found Guilty today!!!!! |
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I just woke up from about 6 hours of sleep thinking it was 7 in the morning. So I got outa bed and got ready for school but my mom wasn't here so I had "breakfast". Then she came home and I just told her "I'll be in the car" I was out there for about ten minutes. Then I finally realized that it was getting darker, came inside and asked my mom what time of day it was. (it was freakin 7pm!) I'm such a flippin idiot.
On a brighter note I might be getting a scanner for my birthday! X3 thats where my mom was (looking for scanners in walmart) of course she's not the most dependable person in the world....she told the family we'd get DSL winter break...two months later I ask her about that DSL and she flips out on me saying she's not made out of money....YOU PROMISED DAMNIT!!!!! ^^;
*pelvic thrusts at whoever reads this* yar!!!! (I'm a wannabe pirate!) *flees*
<center> </center>
P.S. going to sleep at 1 in the afternoon could be bad for you!!! sweatdrop
scorn_love · Fri Apr 22, 2005 @ 04:42am · 3 Comments |
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<center>There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
Stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the grave,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the grave.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey.
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey
Ooh, the more I get of you
Stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the grave
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the grave.
wewt!!!!!!
scorn_love · Sat Feb 26, 2005 @ 09:30pm · 4 Comments |
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yar! ^^ (another questionare yay!) |
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This one I stole from my friend Renee in an e-mail. Thanks Renee 3nodding
For starters, Smoke?:: .....what kind of a question is that?! -.- OF COURSE NOT!
Do drugs?:: I may be a bit challenged but I'm not that dumb mad
Have a partner?:: I used to I guess.
Sleep with stuffed animals?::who doesn't?! they make me feel happy....especially when I'm sad. (anyone make a comment on that and they're dead biggrin )
Live in the moment?:: Why yes, of course. If you think too much, then half the things that hapen wouldn't have.
Think you'll get married?:: I hope so.....in my opinion its not likely but i'd still like to ^^;
Have a dream that keeps coming back?:: ya.....I was dreaming about my death O.o it wasn't pretty i'll just say that. (I was pretty much replaying the end of Moulin Rouge and replaced Nicole Kidman with me and there was no guy ;_; I was so lonely crying ) God I hate being sick -.-
Play an instrument?:: I will hopefully be playing the piano or guitar sometime in my high school life ^^;
Believe there is life on other planets?:: um.....suuure and the people/things that live on those planets are cartoon caracters (anime mostly XD)
Remember your first love?:: unfortunatly....I try not to look back on it ><
Still love him/her?:: nah I've gotten over him.
Read the newpaper?::um......yes? oh ya the Comics :3
Have gay/lesbian friends?:: yes....gay, lesbian, and bi friends biggrin I'm so social XP
Believe in miracles?:: depends on the time of day...possibly
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:: If its the right person who you love and who loves you in return with loyalty unbounded. razz
Consider yourself tolerant of others?:: Depends on the time of month
Like the taste of alcohol?:: I've never had any alcohol and I never will thank you very much -.-.
Favecandy?:: The kind with chocolate (not too much sugar >< wink
Believe in astrology?:: Yes I do razz
Believe in magic?:: um......yes. yes I do biggrin
Believe in God?:: nope. and I doubt I will ever again biggrin
Pray?:: .....ok with the answer above do you really think that I'd pray?!
Go to church?: forced to.......damn parents -.-
Moving on:
Have any secrets?:: Doesn't everybody? o.o
Any pets?:: my invisible pet ferret Avatart and my two alter egos: fred the psychotic leprechaun (who is now deceased.....poor fred.) and Poptart......who is chasing after the neighbors cat O.O BAD POPTART! ><
Talk to strangers who IM you?:: um.........sure? only if my friends knew them first. :B
Wear hats?:: yes! I take pride in my Tohma hat biggrin
Hate yourself?:: depends on my mood.
Wish you were someone else?:: If they were a lot like me maybe. biggrin
Have an obsession?:: No I don't have an obsession....I have MANY >< too many too list but a majority of them revolves around anime biggrin
Collect anything?::um.....bishies, pictures, manga, and the occasional anime
Have a best friend?:: Nichole F. (Ikayuro) woooooooo ~(^^)~
Wish on stars?:: when I'm reeealy sleepy ^^;
Like your handwriting?:: It's alright I guess.
Any bad habits?:: ........I can get awfully depressed out of no where ^^;
Care about looks?:: Nope biggrin
Believe in witches?:: Yep yep ^^
Satan?:: (go crowley! -for spoot) yes I do razz
Ghosts?:: I guess so ya
Trust others easily?:: depends on the frirst impression I get from them ^^
Like noise? Music?:: Of course I like music!!! whoever doesn't is psycho o.o;;; but noise is a different situation because there are many types of noise
First thing you think of:
I see:: My computer screen
I need:: asprin ><....and pudding
I find:: the truth can hurt
I want:: to get into the play ><
I wish:: my parents would just leave me alone
I love:: my friends
I hate:: my family a majority of the time
I miss:: John and all the friends that moved away
I fear:: death without fullfilling your dreams and purpose
I hear:: a piano playing
I smell:: hot pockets
I crave:: pudding and ice cream...maybe even brownies
I search:: for answers to my questions and someone who would love me
I wonder:: If my voice will be better tomorrow ( damn sicknesses -.-)
I regret:: hurting some of my friends in my earlier years
I cried:: so hard because of John......
Bought something:: pudding biggrin
Danced:: whenever the right kind of music was playing (and for DDR)
Were sarcastic:: for oh so many things
Talked to an Ex::Yesterday....man I miss him. (oh shwell biggrin )
Had a nightmare:: last night/this morning
Last book you read:: um.....Cirque du Freak 6 I think. Vampire Prince. Before that I was reading The Vampire Armand. And I am currently reading Hero's song biggrin
Last movie you saw:: "Loser" ~(^^)~
Last thing you had to drink:: hot chocolate ^^
Feeling this moment:: tired ^^;
scorn_love · Mon Feb 07, 2005 @ 03:09am · 1 Comments |
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<center> Yes sporky, I took another one of your ideas domokun
Gravity of Love
Turn around
And smell what you don't see
Close your eyes
It's so clear
Here's the mirror
Behind there is a screen
And with wings you can't get in
Don't think twice before you listen to your heart
Follow the trace of a random star
What you need
And everything you feel
Is just a question of the day
In the eye of storm you can see a lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love
The path of excess leads to the Tower of Wisdom
Try to think about it
That's the chance to live your life and discover
What it is
It's the gravity of love
Look around just people
Can you hear the voice?
Find the one who'll guide you
To the limits of your choice
If you're in the eye of storm
Just think of the lonely dove
The experience of survival is the key
To the gravity of love
scorn_love · Fri Jan 21, 2005 @ 02:51pm · 1 Comments |
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<center>Ya I stole this from sporky_walton who stole it from tree woman who stole it from someone else but we all revised it to fit ourselves ~(^^)~ </center>
I AM: I dunno.....I'm me biggrin
I WANT: Munchies. I reallt wan't John to stay in california but its a bit late for that &&
I HAVE: dogtags............and stuff.
I WISH: Once again, that John would be staying here && and that my brother would stop being such an world class a**, but of course there are some things tou just cant change
I HATE: A majority of my family.....and people who brag too much.
I FEAR: Well I'm starting to fear love. I definatly fear death and lastly I fear losing my friends.
I HEAR: Greenday-Boulevard of Broken Dreams, and other things on my mp3 player.
I SEARCH: For my conscience. Maybe someday I'll find it O.o
I WONDER: If my parents killed Santa Clause and the Easter Bunny.....and if they did, I wonder if they'll kill sporky_walton next...RUN SPORKY RUN!!!
I REGRET: Do I have to list them?
I LOVE: my friends (in the friendly way!!!)
I ACHE: for someone.....I still don't know who.
I ALWAYS: seem to be in a cloud of angst in reality. Hopefully I'll grow out of it sooner or later.
I AM NOT: the steriotypical teen, a pot head (ex. my sister), or stupid
I DANCE: when I want......basically...at dances ^^;
I SING: pretty much everyday
I CRY: pretty much every week
I AM NOT ALWAYS: right or the nicest of people
I WRITE: when I am inspired to do so
I WIN: every so often......~(^^)~
I LOSE: A lot of the time.....whenever I stop trying
I CONFUSE: myself as well as my friends and "family"
I NEED: a life outside of the internet o.o
I SHOULD: be doing homework &&
YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY: No. I have tried keeping a diary but I never stick to it.
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: Yes! I am the baker of my group of friends!!! And I try to give me mum a break from making dinner every once in a while
x. YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: Yes and no matter how hard you try, i'll never tell.
x. YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: Its one of my strongest beliefs
DO YOU...?
HAVE A CRUSH: Yes.
WANT TO GET MARRIED: most likely...doubt it will ever happen though
GET MOTION SICKNESS: sometimes
THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: definatly not! XD
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: Nope. They hate to admit that their "little baby" is growing up and continue to baby me. Ya I'm sick of it -.-
LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: Yes Yes Yes! I stand in the rain sometimes waiting for the thunder and lightning to start. Then i'm forced back inside by parents.
CURRENT
HAIR COLOR: Strawberryish blonde. (soon to be red head if my sister would dye it already -.-)
EYE COLOR: grey-blue
BIRTHPLACE: Walnut Creek, California
FAVORITE
NUMBER: 19
COLOR: purple, black, and silver
DAY: Friday. I get the computer to myself usually on Fridays ^^;
MONTH: January
SONG: Thats a tuffy.......let me get back to you on that one
FOOD: ramen and ice cream
SEASON: fall
SPORT: DDR..........I agree with sporky_walton. It will one day be a sport
DRINK: Hot chocolate (in winter and fall), orange juice, and orange juliuses
PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddling
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: HOT CHOCOLATE!
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: milk chocolate
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate
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IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? yes
HELPED SOMEONE? I really don't know...Maybe?
BOUGHT SOMETHING? other than food no
GOTTEN SICK? I almost threw up a few minutes ago ^^;
GONE TO THE MOVIES? nyo
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? nope
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes and I must say it hurt.
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? O.O no!!! GASP!
TALKED TO AN EX? Yes
MISSED AN EX? definatly
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? ya I guess
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? sure
MISSED SOMEONE? the most I've ever missed anyone was today
HUGGED SOMEONE? yes....about 10 people maybe more biggrin
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no....for once
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? I got over a "fight"
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Name 5 bands/singers you listen to:
1. Evanescense
2. Sum 41
3. Jimmy Eat World
4. Linkin Park (don't ask don't tell)
5. Enigma
Name 7 things you hate:
1. people who know about spell check and don't use it -.-
2. bragging jerks
3. jerks
4. homework
5. being sick &&
6. my brother
7. when my second stomach hurts
Would you ever:
1. Eat a bug? sorry no
2. Bungee jump? sounds fun ~(^^)~
3. Hang glide? same as above razz
4. Kill someone? depends on the person...hehe heh heh twisted
5. Kiss someone of the same sex? never again && never never never!!!!!!
6. Have sex with someone of the same sex? no!!!!!
7. Parachute from a plane? once again...sound fun ^^
8. Walk on hot coals? I'd rather not kill my feet thank you very much
9. Go out with someone for their looks? No. I'm not shallow -.-
10. For their reputation? I don't really give a care about peoples reputations
11. Be a vegetarian? it all depends
12. Wear plaid with stripes? um......sure? ^^;
13. IM a stranger? Maybe if it's someone that one of my friends knows that I don't
14. Sing Karaoke? If I am compelled to do so yes.......or if someone forces it on me &&
15. Get drunk off your a**? no thank you
16. Shoplift? nope
17. Run a red light? sorry but I cant......yet ^^
18. Star in a porn video? sorry no. my boobs may be big but I'm not the best when it comes to looks and also....I don't think I'd ever be that desperate
19. Dye your hair blue? If I believe it will look good then ******** ya.
20. Be on Survivor? I don't like reality tv shows that much
21. Wear makeup in public? sure
22. Not wear makeup in public? I do that every day o.O
23. Cheat on a test? mebbie....you saw nothing (as said sporky_walton)
24. Make someone cry? Unless I had to then there is no way in hell I would want to do that.
25. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? It all depends on their personality ^^;
26. Stay up all night? Yep. I've done it on more than one occasion, i'll tell ya that. XD
Now tell nobody what you have seen ninja
scorn_love · Sat Jan 15, 2005 @ 06:16am · 5 Comments |
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