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So, It has been a year since I've last been on here. That's insane. I can't believe how fast time has gone, how so much can happen in so little time. I'm finally in college. It's wonderful here. Everyone is so nice and I feel so accepted. The only problem is that you can get so lost here. Sometimes I have to second guess the things I believe in because I get so lost in the ideas of other people. I guess it just goes to show me that you can think you know what you want out of life and then next thing you know you find yourself looking in the completely opposite direction.
I've gotten much better since I've been in college. I've been happier, I've felt safer. From time to time the ghosts of my past come to haunt me and torment me but its on rare occasions. I'm still uncomfortable with how I look. No matter what I do, I still look in the mirror and feel like falling to my knees and crying right there. Some fears never go away, and apparently neither does body dismorphia. I've made a wonderful friend here, Theresa. She makes me feel free and carefree. She just gets me, you know? I couldn't ask for a better friend.
I'd let more stuff out but for now I just want to rest and take in everything for a while.