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I dont know anymore I thought it could work but all was just forgotten...
thinking her heart was broken I was going to mend it...
but seeing that today was that day and my chest jumped with joy it seemed like today will be the first day,.... it all just went down the drain anyways...
seeing her happy and smile made me see that I'm not the one at all...
I could never be what I thought I could have been
there the mirages and illusion broke as my heart did when they held hands and laughed...
he's my friend I didn't know that after their last mishappening they'd get togather again.
I felt nothing but a single-displacement reaction as I the "B" was pulled away from "A" and left out ,as the "C" stole my "A".
but in the meantime who would I be?
everyday for longer than a year!!! I felt ready and was going to tell everyone my plan and secret...
till the bell tolled and the life I was living in croaked.
I'll just be left alone...
and who knows who the next 30-yr old wierdo appears regretting what happenned those last years of his life.
thinking about it thats me.
know the life in which I lived and existed all seems like it was a dreram and my meaning of life was destroyed...it's true...it's always the quite ones that go crazy and I've held my self togather for too long...
now the time has come in which the grim reaper has come to claim another and I will just stand and watch as life goes on through black and white.